September 4th, 2007, 3:36 am
AN: Major thanks to IMissPadfoot and GinnyPotter19 for all their help! Well this is another fic, ect :lol:
I don't own any use of Hogwarts and it's characters. That all belongs to JKR who I am not. :D
September 4th, 2007, 6:38 pm
CH.1 Kale, and everyone else.
"Come on Kale, dance with me," Aaron said pulling me in closer; it was the day before Christmas, The Yule Ball. I was wearing a pearly white dress, with silver heels. I didn't mind dancing with Aaron; it was more of the fact that I had my eyes on James Potter, Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley's son.
"Might I cut in?" James said looking at Aaron. Aaron shuffled his feet, looked at me and took a seat. I smiled and James and I started dancing. This night had gone pretty well. Dancing, the food, no letters from dad, and I even saw Neville and Luna dancing, they looked very happy.
My brown hair was reaching towards my shoulder, as I looked into his emerald eyes, and as James stared into my hazel eyes. I gave him a smile, and while we danced, I looked at Jason; he was talking to my twin brother Sirius. I didn't mind though, tonight was going perfectly. Maybe I could get my boyfriend to make a fool of himself in front of everyone? I had doubt in my mind. When I first saw Jason, he didn't dance, when I first met Jason, I received some hexes coming towards me. But brother did I get him back.
I leaned my head against James' shoulder, and we danced, when I noticed his date; I pushed him towards her, walked to the table, grabbed a cup of coffee, and drank some. Then made my way to make Jason come and dance with me.
I stared at Kale she looked different tonight. Not that that was a bad thing or anything. She was just different, all the time her hair would be in a ponytail, her excuse was 'I don't like my hair in my face' This must have been important to her, if she was letting her hair down.
Kale wasn't that difficult to figure out, she pretty much let herself out, which was once you got to know her. She would make you laugh all the time, over the smallest thing. Questioning others, like why blue instead of green. Stuff like that etc.
I am 16, as are the others, and Sirius and Kale were the youngest, their birthdays were in May. It was our last year at Hogwarts, and we were going to make things different. Or change something, something that none of us would do. This would be our year. Glancing at Fleur Chang, and she giving me a smile, the next thing I knew, we were dancing together. Side by side, right by Kale and James.
Did Kale just glare at Fleur? Or was it just my imagination?
I gave Fleur a smile, and her cheeks began to redden. She smiled, back and we continued on dancing through the night.
Laughing, at Sirius, he was making a complete fool of himself trying to get girls to dance with him. All he got was an injured foot and a slap to the face.
"Give it up."
"Why should I, I mean honestly, you never had to compete for any girls here. You have them all chasing after you."
"Shut it Sirius."
It was true; I did have almost every girl chasing after me. But the one I was with was Kale. She had long flowing, wavy brown hair. Her eyes were hazel, but sometimes they were green. But when she was sad or mad, her eyes were a light brown. She was beautiful; she was smart, sweet, and caring.
There she was, coming up to me, leaving James behind, well no, he was just off dancing with another girl.
"Dance with me, please?" she said taking my hand, and leading me to the dance floor.
"Well, I guess now, I have no choice, do I?"
She shook her head, and gave me a soft kiss on the cheek; I remembered how I met Kale. It was in Defense Against the Dark Arts. I had sent some hexes towards her, and I thought she wouldn't dare do anything back too me. I was wrong, later on in the halls; She caused me to trip, and then set my robes on fire. Luckily her friend James was there to put the flames out, but he had a nice laugh. But that didn't stop me from getting her back, but before I could, McGonagall sent us to detention, where we had to scrub trophies.
We began to argue, and argue. Insulting each other, but the same night, was the night of the homecoming dance. Kale showed up wearing a golden dress, her hair was in a loose ponytail, and she looked at the room. There she saw Aaron or maybe it was James? She began to dance with one of them, although I can't remember whom.
She stepped out of the dance, when James and Aaron had saw there dates. I followed her out to the lake, and she apologized. I didn't though, but I did place my jacket around her, and she smiled. Then as the night grew dark, she rested her head on my shoulder. We remained friends, and later on I asked her out, by giving her a necklace, with a music note, seeing as Kale liked music so much.
As the night passed, all three of them went to the Gryffindor Common room. I was sorted into Slytherin. We all met on the Hogwarts Express, when James told us his name, we all about leaped from are seats and started asking him questions and such. Except Kale, she wasn't like most girls who seemed to fawn over all guys that were 'cute' but just on the one who really truly loved her. I was that guy, well that was if I didn't screw things up with her first.
In the morning I ran to the Great Hall, and looked at Kale. She was smiling at me, and reached for the cup of coffee in front of her. That was Kale, she had a major addiction to coffee, but it was better than an addiction to Fire whiskey. Just as I was getting ready to get up, that’s when I noticed Fleur Chang. She was brilliant, and I asked her if she would like to help me study, for Transfiguration.
"So do you want to study sometime...?" I said making my way up to her. She smiled and gave me a nod.
"Aaron... are you okay?" Kale's voice hit me hard, and my cheeks began to redden.
"Umm fine... just thinking."
"Oh my God you can think?" Sirius voice spoke. Sirius and Kale were related they were twins. Kale gave him a hard slap on the shoulder, and that's when James began to laugh. Looking at my friends Kale smiled and the three of us were going to Transfiguration. We had Transfiguration with the Hufflepuffs; Jason wasn't there, which gave me time to flirt with her. Or try to that was, she always seemed to be looking at James - did she not like Jason, but maybe fell in love with James?
After Transfiguration, with the Hufflepuffs, we walked over to Defense Against the Dark Arts; we had that class with the Slytherins. Jason sent, Kale a little love note, which made Kale blush a bit. But that didn't stop her from learning. Sadly nothing ever made her not learn. Learning was something Kale just had the talent for, but homework was another story. She would put it off until the end, while I kept telling her too do it the moment she got it, so she wouldn't have to stress over the fact, that she had a pile of homework to do in a 3 hour time limit. I have been trying that for 7 years and it led me nowhere. Nowhere at all.
Growing up with Kale, well I sort of had too, seeing as we were twins, and we grew up in the same house. She had major talent, when it came too music and Dark Arts. That's probably why she was going out with Jason Malfoy. I hated him when he came over. All they did was kiss in front of my family. That was until one day, I gave him a large major talk with a punch in the arm. Kale didn't approve of this at all. But he still kissed her, even in class. All I did was give him a cold stare. Why couldn't Kale go out with Aaron, or James? Guys I could understand. The only times I understood Jason, was when I had too much Fire whiskey too drink, or when we had good laughs. I still didn't understand why she wouldn't go out with Aaron or James; they did treat her better than well Jason. He was either auguring with her or kissing her. But Kale couldn't think when it came to boys.
Aaron and I walked into the Library. Where we began getting books for Draught of the Living Dead, we got the whole job on tutoring 3rd years, because mum said it would be good for me. But when I found out Kale didn't have to do it, I got mad, and that's when Aaron decided he would help me out a bit.
Being the son of the famous Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley it wasn't hard for me to make friends. It was difficult to see who was my friend and who wanted to be. Kale and Sirius, and Aaron well we just all seemed to get a long in an instant. Sirius was rushing and tripped over his trunk. Being the son of Neville Longbottom, it was his luck. In his words a curse. But Kale, Sirius and I we all grew up together. When we met Aaron we learned he was the son of Susan Bones.
We were made friends until the end, all four of us, and Jason, Kale's boyfriend. I knew all the guys hated him, and it was most likely because he was going out with one of the prettiest girls out there, or maybe because he had every single girl chasing after him. It was a mystery to all of us. I put my hand around Kale, while we all walked out into the common room to catch up on some homework. Kale and Jason met because they were sending hexes and curses out, and the only thing I did was put out the fire Kale had caused.
She was like my twin sister. We understood everything and anything. I mean we just had that certain bond. It was either that, or the fact that we grew up together and just understood each other. Either way, Kale and I were "stuck"
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September 12th, 2007, 2:38 am
CH.2 You can't date her - Thanks a lot to GinnyPotter19 and IMissPadfoot for all their hard work. Thanks to Witchsmart and hplova15165 for feedback!
Spinning around, I almost lost my balance, I saw that it was Aaron. I looked at him for a second. “What happened?”
“Fleur and I - We're going out.”
“Wow! Really? Do you know what this means? Double dates!” I said, answering my question before even giving him a chance.
Finally, after 7 years, Aaron finally got himself a girlfriend. I just wished that it wasn’t Fleur. She could have any guy she wanted. When she wanted “that” guy she would lose the “other guy”.
“Umm Aaron, you do know what’s going to happen don’t you?”
“Well of course! On Valentines Day I’m going to take her to the dance and before that I’m going to take her to Hogsmeade on Saturday! It’s going to be different shopping with her, but I’m sure I’ll get use to it.”
“Yeah carrying her bags…” I mumbled.
“What did you say?” Aaron said looking at me blankly.
I took Aaron’s hand, “I’m only saying this because I care about you Aaron. When she gets bored of you, she’s going to dump you and move on.”
“Kale, that won’t happen - You're – You're just jealous.”
“I’m not jealous Aaron. If you don’t remember, I’m in a great relationship with Jason.”
“Well if I’m so boring!” Aaron exclaimed, pulling his hand out of my own.
I balled my hand into a fist.
“Aaron, I never said you were boring, but I know Fleur, and she does things like that. She likes you, but when she sees a guy she wants she gets him, and where does that leave you?” Aaron looked at me, got up and left.
Taking sighed and grabbed my knap sack, ready to go somewhere. I didn’t want to be alone. Making my way into the Great Hall, I saw Jason. I walked up to him and began kissing him on the neck. He smiled and gave me a warm kiss on the lips. That was when Sirius pulled me away. I shot him a cold glare, not wanting to hear what he had to say right now. He gave shrugged and I walked back to Jason to tell him what happened.
I didn’t mean to make Aaron mad at me. I just wanted him to know what was going to happen. Jason looked at me and held me right then and there.
‘What does she know? She doesn’t know anything. She’s jealous. That’s it mate. She’s jealous! But it’s Kale. She’s brilliant, smart, and pretty, but she’s with Jason. You’re with Fleur. Kale is wrong.’
Putting my arm around, Fleur I gave her a kiss on the cheek. She blushed and we began working on our Transfiguration essays. Fleur was a lot of help and she was just like me, we both did our homework so there was no need to rush doing our homework on Friday.
We were both nothing but all smiles, until Kale and Jason came in laughing and took a seat at the table by us. Kale kept shooting looks towards us, and every now and then I would see Jason staring at her and she gave him a forced smile. I didn’t make any gestures towards Kale to come take a seat by us. Leaning toward Fleur, I heard a slam on the table. I looked up and saw Kale leaving the room. Jason took off after her. I shrugged leaned back in and kissed Fleur.
James and I were having a great time, playing pranks on many of the third years. It was our last year and we were going to have a great time. That was until we ran into Dean. It turned out that his older brother is in our year. James laughed, not believing what was going on.
“Hey mate, take it easy. We know you guys. You know that I am James and you're Jackson.”
“I’m Thomas.” Dean pointed out, annoyed with James’ mistake.
“Right - That’s what I said.” James said, and then the both of us burst out laughing and started racing down the halls.
“Nice one James, but you didn’t get his name right.” I said. "Course not Sirius." We continued laughing and saw Kale; she shoved right through us and made her way past. I looked at James and he shrugged. Neither of us knew what the matter was, but we were going to follow.
"Sirius, your sister is such a handful sometimes."
I punched James, in the arm and we raced after her.
Taking after Kale, I walked into the common room and spotted her sitting at corner chair.
“Kale? Are you okay?” I said, concerned with the hurt in her eyes.
“James?” Kale asked, nearly falling out of her seat with shock.
I took a seat by Kale, it was getting late, and I wished I were there earlier. She had been crying, and her eyes were big and brown. I ruffled her hair and took her in a hug. “It’s going to be okay.” I said giving her a kiss. I had no idea what was going on, but this was Kale, and every sign pointed to comforting her right now.
“Thanks James.” She said wiping away her falling tears. As she leaned on my shoulder I heard stomping on the stairs. Someone had been listening and it was a guy. Obviously. I looked up and there was no one there. Kale walked up stairs and I headed towards the boys’ dormitories where I found Aaron, who was shooting me a cold look. I stared at him and jumped onto my bed.
“Why did you kiss her, mate?” Aaron asked. His voice was calm, but one wrong word out of me, and it could change very quickly.
Turning around and looking at Aaron lying on his bed, I spoke. “She needed me at the time, Aaron. She was crying, and - And I care about Kale.” I said confidently.
“You think I don’t? I do, but I’m not running off kissing her! What do you think Jason is going to do when he finds out?” Aaron shot at me no sooner than I had finished.
“He dumped her for some girl!” taking in a sigh I added, “I don’t know why you’re so mad; you’re going out with Fleur.” Filled with shame, he turned around and I did the same. Over the next few weeks’ things between, Kale, Aaron, Jason and I were going to be rocky.
When Kale would see Jason her face would turn red, and she would walk with her face down. Jason, however, didn’t care. But for Aaron and Fleur things couldn’t go any more smoothly. Later on that night, I asked Kale out for a dinner.
Sighing, and drying my hair with my wand, I put on a blue tank top, skinny black jeans, and a pair of flip-flops and made my way into the common room. It was late, but James wrapped his dad's cloak around me and we began to make our way. When we made it there we asked for some coffee. He began to tell corny jokes, and all I could do was laugh. James was a great guy, he was an amazing guy, and he was there when you needed him.
I looked up at him, and he looked at me too. Making our way back through the halls, and into the common room, we found Aaron sitting. Waiting.
“Took you two long enough! What were you doing? Snogging again?”
I was confused and James shook his head.
“You’re talking about old times mate. Next time you should join in.” James said, a look of disbelief on his face.
Aaron shook his head and James walked up stairs. I was left alone with Aaron. He looked at me and sighed.
“Kale, Fleur and I are going to Hogsmeade, on a date, and you can join us, if you want, and bring your friend, James.”
“He’s your best friend too if you haven’t forgotten.” I said quickly, knowing now that something was going on between the two boys.
He shook his head.
“I have nothing left with James, and I don’t know if I have anything to do with you either.”
“If that’s how you feel about it then maybe-”
“You don’t want to lose another good friend this week do you?”
This wasn’t Aaron. What was wrong with him? He couldn’t be Aaron! The Aaron I knew didn’t care what I did, as long as it was safe, but now he was criticizing James and I! We’re just friends!
I ran up the stairs and into the boys’ dormitory, onto James bed, and he held me. “What’s wrong with Aaron? It’s not him.” I said, tears forming in my eyes.
“Kale-” His voice trailed off. I looked up at him in confusion; I didn’t know what was going on this year. This is my last year, and it is supposed to be different. But it’s not different. Not like this. Not me losing Aaron, and Jason… Jason dumped me for another; after I thought we were great together.
Tomorrow is the trip to Hogsmeade, and I wasn’t going to let Aaron, nor his girlfriend, ruin it for me.
I did find Jason. He was walking with a couple of his friends around the village. James put his sweater on me and smiled. I smiled back, and we continued walking. We made our way into the Three Broomsticks where we ordered two Butterbeers. I had a great time, maybe Jason dumping me was supposed to happen. And maybe, just maybe, there was someone better out there. Now all I had to do was find that certain someone.
October 14th, 2007, 3:02 am
Okay well, GinnyPotter19 hasn't been able to send me the edit version, but because I haven't posted in a while, and I really want to move on with the next post, I'll post the "non edit" version and when GinnyPotter19 sends me the "edit" version I'll edit this post and post the edit version. Hope you all got that.
Ch.3 - I love her
"She is so cute,” James smirked. I looked at him and gave him a nudge. Ashley passed by, she was in our year, and I had known her for quite sometime, she had long black hair, and sky blue eyes. James smirked again, “Kale, it isn’t my fault shes good looking.”
I gave him a nudge on the shoulder, “Hello. I’m sitting right here.”
James looked at me, and he began to laugh.
We got up and headed to the dress shop, I wanted too get a nice dress, for the Valentines Ball. James sighed, when I pulled him in there, not to mention mumbled a few words. I picked up a few dresses, a light pink one that when up to my knees, a sky blue dress that reached towards the floor, and finally a white cupcake dress. I went with the white cupcake dress.
James smiled and we made our way back to the shops.
I kissed Fleur and went my separate way. She was busy, shopping. Something I hated, something that I wouldn't want to do. Kale would always force me to going shopping with her.
Kale. What was she doing? Was she thinking of me? Was she snogging James? Was she shopping? Picking out books? Making me absolutely crazy, I loved her. When I first talked to her, on that first week that I had gotten to know her, I had fallen for her. But she would never realize that, not with me and Fleur and certainly not with her and James.
I saw Kale and James walking, and pushed my way through. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? The insides of me screamed, 'if you love her so much, break up with Fleur, and ask her out.'
'She’s in love with James!' I sighed. 'I can’t just break up with Fleur, she' s going to feel so sad and that’s not right.'
YOU LOVE KALE! I can’t fall in love with a girl that has fallen for a guy who I love as a brother, I just can’t. It’s not right!
“So Kale, who are you going to that dance with?”
Kale shook her head, “Not sure James, I mean, and I haven’t been asked by anyone.”
I looked at her, and she wandered off with Sirius. The two were going to Flourish and Blotts to buy more books. I continued walking, and saw Libya, she waved and smiled, and I continued making my way. There it was. I needed that. I bought it, made my way out of the shop and headed off towards Kale. I stopped, there was Aaron, and he was making his way to Kale. I walked a bit faster and jumped in his path. “You don’t want to go by her. Not today.”
“Why not, James? I’m still her friend. Just because I’m ignoring you, doesn’t mean I have to ignore Kale.”
“I…. Don’t mess with her. If you make her cry Aaron.”
“I’m just going past Kale so I can catch up with Fleur, okay?”
I let him go, and made my way towards Kale. I put my arm around her and we continued walking back to school. When we reached the common room, Kale and I raced to the Great Hall and began too eat. “Don’t choke Kale, it’s like the first time you’ve eaten or something.” I said rolling my eyes, and taking a sip of her pumpkin juice when she turned her head. She slapped me on the arm.
“That was mine,” she said laughing. I gave her a smile and she shook her head and continued eating. Aaron was sitting at the end of the table, occasionally looking at us. But I ignored it, and I made sure Kale didn’t see him, that’s all she needed right now was to cry. She had sad or happy, she was like her mum, always talking and rambling on about nothing, and coming up with crazy ideas. She had guys chasing after her, she never dated either. She only had Jason, the freak who dumped her.
It grew late, as the blanket of dark had covered the sun rays. It was about 3 in the morning, I couldn’t sleep, walking down the steps, there she was. She was up too.
“No. Umm Aaron, I can wake him, if you want me too.”
She looked at me and shook her head, she had been crying, “Kale… you okay?”
She shook her head, “Do you want to talk about it?”
She shook her head, “Umm how are things wi…with Fleur?”
I shrugged, “Good, I mean I haven’t asked her yet. I mean out to the ball or dance.”
She shrugged; James came down the stairs and wrapped his arms around her, and pulled her into a hug. I took a seat and looked at the fire that was glowing in front of me, and James took a seat, closely by Kale. Kale looked at him then at me. It was quite quiet – the whole world had stopped. No one was talking; you couldn’t even hear the crackling of the fire. Just silence.
I spoke, the two of them, something was obviously wrong with them “James… Aaron. You guys talk. I mean you guys haven’t or at least not when I’m around.” James looked at Aaron and he looked at me, “Talk to this thing? I don’t think so Kale.”
“You two were best friends! What’s wrong with you guys?”
“Nothing's wrong with me.” Aaron said and then getting up and leaving. I shook my head.
“James… you have to talk to him, you know Aaron, and he’s too stubborn. He won’t talk to you when I’m around.”
“THEN YOU TALK TO HIM!” James yelled, I never heard him yell like this.
I looked at the floor, “Okay.”
I would talk to Aaron in the morning.
“Kale… wait… I didn’t mean to yell… I’m – it just, I’m sorry. It’s just, I don’t know. I mean he – he hurt you, can’t you see that?”
“James… look its nice to know you’re looking out for me.”
“HE MADE YOU CRY DOESN’T THAT AT LEAST MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU?”
“James, we both know that he didn’t mean too…”
I pulled her in and kissed her, her lips for so warm and I couldn’t wait for the dance, to kiss her. I had too; I mean I couldn’t lose her.
“James – what are you doing?”
“Kale… I love you. I mean I loved you since forever, I grew up with you. I love you.”
She looked at me, and hugged me. I pulled her in and sighed.
“Potter…” she said laughing, and leaned her head on my shoulder. She had fallen asleep, her brother came, and put her back into her bed. I walked up stairs, and saw Aaron. He glared at me, “Nice time snogging her?”
“Yes. Yes I did Aaron.”
He looked at me, and I looked at him.
“You love her don’t you?” I said looking straight at Aaron.
He sighed “So what if I do? You're dating her.”
I gave him a nod, “Yes. I’m dating her Aaron. But you have Fleur, had it ever occurred to you that I still had feelings for her, after she dumped me?”
Thinking back, it had happened last year over winter break. Fleur had told James, that she thought it was time they needed a break. Out of the couples – I thought for one that they would last.
“So what is this then, is this to get me back because I’m dating Fleur, if it is Potter you’re one sick man.”
“No. I love Kale and I always will, no matter what the cost is.”
“Even if this means our friendship?” Aaron said looking at me.
“I’m sorry… mate, we all were friends once, you know.”
“I can’t be friends, with a boy who I use to call brother, and a girl who I love, James. Sorry.”
December 22nd, 2007, 9:23 pm
Sorry for the long wait, been really busy ughish lol so here is the next post. :)
Ch.4 Dances are complicated..
I started off the day, it was a boring day. Time was beginning to linger, and all I wanted too do was sleep. But James had other plans. He wanted to take me by the lake, and go out for a date. I mean it was going to be fun, it had to be, and he is James after all. My head began to race, what about Aaron? What would he be doing, was he too going on a date today, with Fleur. Wait, why do I care, I’m taken. I met up with my twin brother Sirius, and he gave me well lets just say a nice brotherly talk.
“Don’t you two be kissing now, well not the whole date, I mean what’s the point?”
I laughed, “Yes, and yet that’s all you do on your date.” He looked at me, “You miss him, I know you do Kale, I can tell.”
“Miss… him, of course I miss him. I did love him after all. But what difference does it make now… I am with James after all.”
He nodded, “I know you are, I was just saying… I mean I can just tell. Hard day today?” I nodded slightly, “I should get going, I have too meet James.”
I walked up the stairs, and decided that I should at least brush my hair. I did and sighed in slightly, and walked down the stairs. There I saw James, “Good morning.” I said he smiled, and took my hand, I looked at him, and we walked towards the lake.
Today was going so horrible, I mean honestly potions today? Why today? I hate potions. I was slowed towards the library, seeing Fleur, she waved, sitting there by her friends laughing. Laughing… her laugh, so annoying. Her laugh, nothing like Kales. How I wished I was with Kale, but Potter wins. He always does. The dance was coming up, to be honest, I didn’t want to go with Fleur, but had was planning on going with Kale. Sighing again, “Fleur.. I was wondering if you’d like to go to the dance with me.”
She looked at me, “Aaron… I know were dating, but I kind of promised James, a while back that I’d go with him.”
Looking at her, nothing, my throat grew dry, I couldn’t talk. I walked away. “Aaron wait…” I heard Fleur said grabbing me by the arm. “Youre not mad are you, Aaron?” She said looking at me, staring into my eyes. I shook my head, “Of course not.” I continued walking, It was true, I wasn’t mad, because if she was going with James, that would make me and Kale dateless, which meant that I could ask her out. Everything seemed to be going grand. Or at least that’s what I thought…
“You look very nice this morning.” I said looking at Kale, and hugging her. “Why thanks Potter.” She said laughing. I kissed her on the cheek. How could I tell her, that I wasn’t going to be taking her to the dance? I mean she had been dress shopping, and everything. But she didn’t have a date, “Kale… theres something I have to tell you.”
“What might that be?” She said smiling. She wasn’t making it any easier on me either. Her smile, she was beautiful. “The dance… I umm have a date already, we planned it before we started going out.. youre not mad are you?”
She shook her head, “No… but I should be going, you know with homework and all.” She said getting up, leaving me there, alone.
Mad, what would he think? Of course I was mad; I mean I wanted to go with him. Who was he going with? I continued walking when I heard James calling me, ignoring him and walking faster, until I didn’t hear his soft, sweet voice. Walking and not noticing, I crashed into Aaron. “Oh umm Sorry Aaron.”
“What’s wrong with you Kale?”
I shook my head nothing, “Nothing…”
“I know you better than that, Kale”
Aaron looked at me, I looked at him, I was trying to hold back the burning tears that were in the back of my eyes, “James… that’s all.”
Aaron looked at me, “Sorry to hear so, but I guess today our luck isn’t going so well, Fleur and I aren’t going to the dance, and I’m her boyfriend! Can you believe that?”
I laughed, “Sadly I can… James and I aren’t going and I’m his girlfriend.”
I wanted to tell her, that I knew that Fleur and him were going to the dance together. Just so she’d be ready. But another part of me wanted to keep it in, so I could just be there talking, and laughing with her. Dances so complicated.
January 1st, 2008, 7:27 pm
Ch. 5 - I lost her
“I can’t believe he’s going with her, I mean why Fleur, that’s Aaron what if, I mean I. What if they get back together, than what?”
Aaron laughed, and looked at me with a smile on his face, “They won’t get back together, and I mean I’m still dating her.” He said looking into my eyes. I sighed. James was breaking my heart, and he couldn’t even see that. I looked at Aaron, “How can you be so sure?” He shook his head, he wasn’t sure. But something about Aaron, made me realize, that maybe just maybe things would get better.
He smiled and put his arm around my shoulder; I looked at him, and gave him a nice friendly smiled. We walked towards the lake, and he looked at me, “Kale there’s something I want to tell you.”
I looked at him, “What is it?”
He looked at me, “Well, I think it can wait for the dance.” He said with a smile, and I looked back and shook my head, “Okay Aaron, I guess I can wait for a nice big surprise.” I said laughing.
“Have a date for the dance?” He asked me taking my hand. I could feel my cheeks redden.
‘Kale what are you doing? You’re just friends with him, Just friends. You’re not even dating him.’ Shaking my head and letting go of his warm hand and looking at the lake, the sun was setting, the sun hit the water and it wrapped the water in its arms and made it turn a nice calm orange. I smiled and he looked at me.
“So do you think.. we could go together? You know just so I can watch Fleur and stuff.” I smiled and nodded, “Yeah I guess we could go together, Aaron.”
He looked at me and smiled and we both put our eyes forward, and gazed at the sun set.
‘I’m going with Fleur, that’s great. Kale, who is she going with. Aaron, Merlin I hope not. If he kisses her. Dance, well there going to be dancing it’s a dance. Oi Potter your so dumb’ I sighed. My mind was racing, I wanted to go with Kale, and yet was excited to be holding Fleur again. But Kale, the way she looked, who cares what she looked liked, there was just her, only one of her, and I was lucky enough to have her. Well After Jason broke her heart that was. How did she feel? Was she angry, sad, jealous? I paced around the common room.
“Relax James, that’s all you need to do.” I mumbled too myself. Sirius laughed, “Yeah mate, just relax, looks like your about to explode, what’s on your mind?”
I looked at him and sighed, “Sirius, I’m going to the dance with Fleur, but a part of me loves that, and another part wants me too run up to Kale and hug her and just hold her. Then there’s this other part of me that wants to dance with Fleur, and see why she broke up with me, and maybe there’s a second chance.
Sirius laughed, “You have too many parts of you, so what you’re saying is, You like Fleur and Kale?”
I nodded and sighed.
“You like Fleur and me…” Her voice was filled with sadness, and I knew she just heard us. She ran up the stairs, “Wait Kale.” I said trying to run after her. But stopped, the girls stair case would turn into a slide, I sighed. ‘Great now you just lost the girl of your dreams’
January 10th, 2008, 1:25 am
CH.6 - Getting away
I sighed and took a seat on a chair; I saw Libya and gave her a shrug. She took a seat by me, “So you really messed things up with Kale, haven’t you?”
I looked at her, “How do you know?”
She laughed, “The whole common room heard you, I mean… you and Sirius aren’t the best of what’s the word whisperers.” She said with a slight laugh, her violet eyes shining and her blond hair down to her shoulders, in fact, Libya wasn’t bad looking; it’s just well I never hanged out with her. I smiled, “Would you do me a favor, and tell Kale, that I’m really really sorry.”
Libya nodded, “Sure James, but I do think, that you should take Kale to the dance, I mean after all she is your girlfriend, and even if you do like Kale, don’t you think that it would be I don’t know better if you took her to the dance instead of your ex girlfriend? I mean look at it this way James, us girls think loads differently from you guys. Meaning, that well Kale is probably really jealous, and hurt, because well you just told the whole world you had feelings for well both of them. And you know as well as I do, that you can’t have both of them, so if I were you, I would choose between the two. But I’m not you James, so that’s up too you.” She said with a smile then walked up the stairs.
For a girl that was shy, she really did talk a lot. Although what she made sense, and I don’t think apologizing would work, well at least not in this case. Girls…
“Sorry? That’s all he has to say? Yeah like I’m going to forgive him for that one.” I said angry and looked at Libya. She took in a slight sigh, but smiled, “But you do know he loves you Kale, and that’s what matters isn’t it?”
I shook my head, “How can he love me, if he loves her, he can’t love the both of us, I mean it just… it doesn’t work that way. Why would you care anyway?”
Libya looked at me, “Well for one, many girls would love to have James, and I’m just saying that your lucky to have him, but If you don’t want to forgive him, and trust him still then be my guest.” She said with a nod, I sighed and looked at her, then laughed, “I hate that you’re always right.”
She laughed with me and took a seat on my bed that I was laying on. “Since when am I wrong?” I looked at her, and nodded.
“So who are you going to the dance with?” She said looking at me; I looked at her, “Aaron, and you?”
She smiled, “Scorupious Malfoy, do you think that maybe James is going with Fleur because you’re going with Aaron?”
I shook my head, “He asked out Fleur before I even asked out Aaron, or well before Aaron asked me.” She laughed, “You do know… I mean it just seems that Aaron is madly in love with you.”
I looked at her, “Are you sane? He doesn’t love me in that way, I mean he has Fleur.”
She giggled, “So if Aaron has Fleur, and if James does like her, why are you mad? I mean it’s not like James and Fleur can be together now is it?”
I shook my head, “I guess your right, you’re really good at this, and I mean well talking and listening and stuff.”
She laughed, “That tends to happen a lot towards me, and I mean this is the first dance that I’m going to.” I looked at her, “Really? I mean… I just thought, that you’d have I mean... you’re really pretty and that guys would fall for you but you?”
She looked at me and laughed, “Fall for me, no not really, I mean well some do, but I just want too be with that one guy. I mean that special guy.”
I looked at her, “Scorupious is this one guy, and how did that happen?”
She laughed, “Well basically him being mean too me and me getting him back.”
I looked at her, “Like me and Jason….” I said. She nodded, “Must be... I mean they are brothers and all.” I laughed and sighed, “I guess I should get going downstairs, I mean the dance… the dance is in a couple of hours.”
“Downstairs? Shouldn’t we be getting ready?” I laughed, “Yeah getting ready, that’s a good idea.”
After procrastinating I put on the white dress, and let my hair loose. I looked at Libya, her eyes violet, and her hair was in a bun, and her dress, was emerald green. I smiled, “Nice dress.” She smiled, “You too.” We headed downstairs. Then walked towards the great hall. She looked at me, and walked towards Scorupious. I walked into the Great Hall and tried to find Aaron, on the dance floor, I saw Jason and his date, Sirius and his friends drinking punch, James and Fleur dancing, and in the corner of the back of the room was Aaron. I smiled and walked towards him, “You are supposed to be dancing you know?” He laughed, “Well I wanted to wait for you.”
I looked at him, “The corner... I mean the best place I could see you.” I said sarcastically. He shrugged. I gazed into his eyes, he seemed hurt his eyes were locked on Fleur and I thought ‘Libya you were wrong he loves Fleur, not me’ then looked away, “So should we um… dance, or…” He looked at me, “Um… I guess we could dance.”
I nodded and we took the dance floor. We were dancing by James and Fleur. Every now and then I would catch James looking at us, but I just smiled. Tonight… was going to be one of the best nights of my last year, and sorry to say but I didn’t want James ruining it. Too late, I looked at him, and he was kissing Fleur. I stopped dancing, tears forming in my eyes I looked at Aaron, he looked the other way, then back at James. He pulled away from her, “Kale...”
I made my way out of the great hall. Away, from everyone, especially Potter.
March 22nd, 2008, 4:11 pm
CH.7 - Sorry isn't good enough
Why did he kiss her? Wasn't i good enough for him. I was his, he loved me. I was nothing compared to her. Nothing at all, she could have all the guys she wanted, but she wanted him. I wanted him, and he wanted her. I had him, how did I loose him? What was I doing wrong? Was it the way I looked?
Must have been, she looked so much better than me, was a hundred times better than me at everything she did. She was perfect for him. Why wasn't I?
Slowly, walking and sighing, and letting the tears fall from my face. I made my way to the astronomy tower. It was nice up there, just looking up at the stars. I did this a lot with him, I wish he were here. He would know what too do. Wrap his arms around me, and say that everything would be okay. Was it going to be okay? What was I going too do. How would I face James, or Aaron, or even my own brother. Libya, what would say. Jason would be making fun of me probably telling me how I lost James and what not. And Fleur, feeling with rage, and the thought of her, and clutching my fist, I could feel myself get hot, then sighing. She wasn't worth it.
He was a fool. She wasn't worth my time. Kale. James had hurt her and seeing her face, when she saw James, kissing Fleur. Did I hurt her like that? Was that the hurt James was trying to talk to me about. Where was she now. Making my way out of the great hall, and trying to find Kale. After about a hour, there she was. At the astronomy tower. Crying, I wrapped my arms around her, "Your going too be okay you know." She nodded, "Your just like him..."
He smiled, "He was my best friend, Kale."
She looked up at me, "Yeah I know.." mumbling. Since when did Kale mumble. Well I actually thought it was cute. Her not knowing what too say for once in her life, which was pretty neat and odd all at the same time. But it made me want too be with her even more. It made me want to just kiss her softly, and promise her the world. Even if it did mean, me and James not being friends anymore. But Kale, I knew she wouldn't want that. Even if we both had hurt her, she would forgive us and just continue to love us. I'm guessing thats why everyone was so love struck with her. She just knew what too do, and she knew how too do it. Wether it be talking to some first year, about how DADA wasn't so bad, even if you were with people you hated.
She was amazing.
"Fleur, what was that all about!?" She giggled at me, "Oh come on James, you know you wanted me too do it, I could see it in your eyes." I groaned, "Fleur, were done, I've moved on. Your not with me anymore, you moved on." Heads were turning in the great hall. "I loved her. Not you." I didn't care if the whole school knew.
Fleur looked at me and smiled. "I think thats a bit late, I mean wheres Kale? And wheres your friend Aaron?"
Aaron, and Kale, both gone. Were they? No they wouldn't. She wouldn't, tell me anything - I didn't loose her. I couldn't loose her. Loving her this much, Aaron loved her. We both loved her. But, who did she love? School was becoming a love mess. I mean what would mum say too me. What would dad say, looking up at my mum and dad, and sighing. I began to walk and head too the room of requirment. There was a couch and firewhiskey, and my guitar. Playing the guitar softly, and drinking here and there.
I wish she were here right now, singing too her, only made Kale cry, but, I loved her. It made me loose my mind, not knowing who she wanted.
Aaron made my night better, he was a great friend. James, what was he doing? Walking away from Aaron, after he decided too go back to the dance, I decided to go to the room of requirement. Where I heard guitar playing, that was probably James, why wasn't he kissing Fleur. He had enjoyed it too, do it right in front of me.
"James.." I said looking up at him. He looked up at me, he was drinking. I sighed, I hated when he would, and I wished that he wouldn't. I took a seat by him, and we just sat there not talking. "Why did you..." I mumbled, he sighed and hanged his head, "She.. I'm sorry."
I looked at him, tears were forming in my eyes, "sometimes.. sorry isn't good enough." He nodded, "yeah i know." I wanted him too know, that yes, i was hurt, but maybe, just maybe there was a chance. Was there? Should I even give him one. I mean he had hurt me, but so did Aaron, and we were friends. Maybe, it was going to be the same thing, with James. But harder, because I had so many feelings for him. Didn't he see that? Did Aaron. I took in a sigh, and we just sat.
April 1st, 2008, 4:21 am
CH.8 - I'm a good brother
My sister, Kale lost and confused. That was something new, i put my arms around her, "Don't worry sis, things will.. be better." She looked at me, her eyes burned. No it wouldn't. That was written on her face. James, my best friend, had hurt her like this. Aaron had hurt her. And he had hurt her. He was the one that hurt her most. When she needed him, he wasn't there. He couldn't be there. She wanted him more than anyone, and he couldn't see that he wast he blind one. She was the one in love. Now love was nothing. Being struck by it was hopeless, being the old her, was something we would never get back. We all wanted her too be Kale, the Kale we all loved and now? Where was she at.. who was she? She wasn't my sister.
"Thanks Sirius," I said with a smile, still with his arms around me. James, and I were over, it sucked. Aaron, was he..stop thinking about him. I couldn't like him, I was just getting over James. James walked into the room, with pleading eyes. I tried to turn away from him, I had too. Don't let go of me Sirius Don't. He did, boys... My eyes followed as Sirius began to walk out of the deserted Common Room. "Kale..." his voice trailed off. "I don't want too talk about it, or anything with you." I said feeling angry. More angry, then I had when he had first kissed Fleur. He meant nothing. He was nothing too me. I didn't like James, I hated him. He tore me apart. But so did he. I handed James his necklace, back the thing that made me feel better, the thing that reminded me of him.
AN - Short i know, but its late..
June 29th, 2008, 5:35 am
CH.9 - Why am i so invisible?
My eyes were red and puffy, my stomach ached. I hadn't eaten in days, nor did I sleep. Life wasn't going my way, but it did'nt seem to be going anyone's way. I knew James wasnt' doing so well in his classes, and if he didn't shape up, he was going to be kicked off of the quidditch team. As sad as that was, I just didn't care for it anymore, even though I myself loved to play, my world was revolving around guys. Even though it shouldn't have, it just couldn't keep from escaping my mind, especially in class when i was sitting by James and Aaron constantly. It was horrible, it was if I were cursed. A very very horrible curse, that wouldnt' leave. I could probably bang my head on the table and my world would still revolve around guys. If he were here, he would know what to do, how to make me feel better. He wasn't going to be here though, not anymore, he had gone, left we were done, we would never see each other ever again. I sighed and walked down the hall with my brook bag hitting my side every now and then, it was best if i were to buy another, well that was when time would agree with me and let me. Hearing the noise in the halls, the laughter. Laughing, what ages it was before i was going to be able to do that, did cinderella ever laugh? She must have been lucky if she did, because prince charming, was hard to find, and even if i had - had him, he was hard to get rid of. I smiled, that thought, had made me smile, although it was random, it was to do. Libya, where was she at? We we're suppose to meet her about 10 minutes ago, and she was.. here. With James, holding hands, kissing his cheek. What? She had feeilngs for another guy, she knew how i felt about him, how could she? Tears began to form in my eyes, my face was growing hot, she wasn't going to see me, although she probably did, as she let go of him and put her head down. I sighed and made my way to the common room, great now i wanted a dorm change. Yeah that new bag of mine that i wanted wasn't going to come here any faster, and my world of boys wasnt' leaving me any faster either. Boys.
Breakfast, was great. Everything for me was going great, well some of it that was. I hadn't talked to Kale, and my feelings for her were probably invisble. Was I invisble? Did she see me, feel me at all? Could she hear how my heart screamed her name, or was she too busy crying over James, or him? We all needed him, but Kale she needed him most. Girl were the most complicated people in the world, I swear to you they were. Shaking my head and sighing, where was she? The perfect girl, my soul mate. I'm still young shush. Shaking my head again, and getting up and walking the halls, seeing James and Libya? Sweet! Yes! Finally my chance with Kale! Or was James using Libya? Falling into my own place again, and looking at James, then at Libya, she was a smart girl and she probably knew what she was getting herself into, and if she didn't the ride wouldn't be fun, everyone knew that James belonged to kale and she belonged to him, it was how the universe was made, and nothing was going to change it, well unless he were here. Out of all times where was he?
July 13th, 2008, 7:05 pm
CH.10 - He's Back
A Hogsemade trip was just around the corner, and that meant everything not only did I finally get to go back home and just hang out in my room, the peace and quiet and hopefully getting to avoid James, I mean i shouldn't have thought of it that way; but I did, i mean James and I were friends, best of friends but we weren't anymore, probably never would be. You know that golden rule? The one that every girl should follow, don't date your bestfriend. Should have followed it, now looking back at everything. Sure being in Jame's arms was fine, and comforting, he was there when i needed him to be, but now look at us? We know nothing of each other, we never talk, all we do is avoid each other, i don't think i would ever want to date another friend again, because seeing and doing and looking back on what happened how life is now, it just doesn't seem fair. But thats how the world works right? Maybe i should just date some other person or something who knows...
Maybe I should just give up on Kale, I mean she didn't seem to show any interest in me, or maybe if i dated another girl she would get jealous, if he were here he would be able to tell me, what to do. I mean he was Kale's first love. But he was gone, and he was never going to come back, but Kale, she always had hope, hope he would be coming back here no matter how many times we told her that he wouldn't be. She was so clingy, as mean as that sounds it was true wasn't it? I mean she had to be with someone all the time, very dependent, well no i guess i shouldn't say dependent, at least not all the time, she was independent when she had one of those weird moody moments. Walking into the boys dorm, and taking a seat on the couch, yawning, feeling the heat and looking at the embers of the fire glow letting it hit my face, feeling its worth, feeling my face and looking down at my hands, nothing was wrong, maybe i was just over tired trying to figure out how to read Kale, she was tough to read. I only knew that she liked being with people, people that treated her right, people that made her feel good but other than that i had really no idea how girls thought, which was quite sad, seeing as I knew Kale my whole life, or most of it anyway. Looking around and seeing James, the guy who was so close, to me, who i now loathed. "What do you want James?"
Merlin, what was his problem? I could have walked in any time i wanted, "Nothing," I mumbled. He didn't need to know what was going on and neither did any one else. My business was my business. Shrugging and taking a seat on the couch farthest from him, and rubbing my head. Why was he back? He shouldn't have been here, I was going to get Kale back, and he came. He was suppose to be gone. But now he was here. What was Kale going to do when she saw him? Sighing, and looking at Aaron, "Aaron..."
Aaron looked at me, a bit puzzled or so his face read. "What?" Then glared at me, I sighed this wasn't going to be hard, but just having to talk to him, it sucked.
"He's back.. Aaron."
July 17th, 2008, 8:04 pm
CH.11 - Cole
“What do you mean he’s back?” Feeling drained, not only physically but mentally, this whole thing with Kale and James, and now him? I looked over at James; it looked as if he were going to cry? Laughing a bit, “Calm down mate, if she means that much to you then you can have her.” What was I saying? I wanted her, wanted… did she mean that much to me? Or did I just want her because James had her? Was she a boost for my ego, Kale was one of the popular girls in school, It could be, but I was one of her best friends. Sighing, “James, I’m sorry for everything, I wasn’t thinking straight.”
James looked at me and nodded, maybe Kale meant everything to him; maybe James was just a good liar. James never really was the one to lie though. It didn’t matter now that he was here, he would be the one winning her over, but he hurt her, he was supposed to be dead. For her sake, it was the perfect plan; it was why her father had done it. But he was back, and when Kale’s father was going to find out, well things weren’t going to be so pretty. When Sirius found out, well who knows what was going to happen. What about Jason? He had cared for Kale, more than he had done for Fleur that was noticeable, when they broke up in front of the whole school, it led Kale to have a great laugh, one in which we hadn’t seen in forever.
“Stop getting caught up in your thoughts, Aaron.” Almost falling from those words that echoed out of his mouth, and looked at James, “Alright alright, I’m done, but when he comes here, I want to stay out of it, you can do what you want, but I think its time I move on, for myself, not for anyone else’s good, just for me, being Kale’s friend is great, and I think that’s all I want, for now.”
“She doesn’t belong to anyone, at least not at the moment.”
“She isn’t some prize, Aaron.”
“I know, but we’ve been competing over her for months, and it’s time we both moved on.”
He nodded, I knew he still wanted to be with her, and that he was going to try to do everything he could, but he was going to try very hard, with him here, Kale was his, no matter how “stuck” James and Kale were, that’s how James put it, it wouldn’t matter any more. When Kale came to boys, she didn’t think right. I don’t think any girl thought right when It came to boys, I Just knew that Kale was one of them.
Tossing and turning in my bed, something wasn’t right, or something was beyond great, and it just didn’t feel right, or not possible. Turning on the side of my bed and looking at Libya, I grumbled, how could things go from being super great to being the most horrible? I mean earlier this year I was dating Jason, the love of my life? Or so I thought but then he dumped me for Fleur? Sure she was pretty, but I mean there had to be something more than looks, then I dated James, his lips were so warm, feeling so safe and non afraid in his arms, then he went to the dance with Fleur, sure it was planned before I was dating him, but then he goes of and kisses her, right in front of everyone? Then he makes out with Libya, one of my best friends? Not to mention all the fights I had with Aaron, but those didn’t matter, I mean Aaron and I were friends now, but James?
Where we even close to being friends again? Or were we just never going to speak to each other turn the other way, when we saw each other, hate the other person who was dating he or she, when that person was your best friend. I looked in the mirror, I looked horrible, well that was possibly due to the fact I hadn’t been eating much, or sleeping. It was early in the morning and Libya, would be up at any moment now, it would be nice to talk to her again, she was there when I needed her but I couldn’t just tell her, I don’t like the fact that your dating James, and I would appreciate it if you broke up with him, because he is my ex, and is my best friend, and yes its true, I do have feelings for him. I don’t think the world worked that way. Brushing my hair, gently looking outside of the window, the sun rising, probably one of the best things there were. Sign of a new day, and new forgiving.
“You should be sleeping still.” Libya said with a giggle, I laughed a bit too, she sat up in her bed, her hair messy, she yawning. I looked at her then back at the window. I didn’t want to talk to her, a part of me did, but the other part wouldn’t do. “Kale, your mad at me, I know you are, I mean James and I kissing, but its not what you think.”
“Not what I think? Do you know how bad that felt? To see my best friend kissing my ex? You knew how I felt, and you still did it.” I felt my face growing red and hot, and knew I needed to calm down, but I couldn’t.
“I did it, because James wanted to make you jealous. He likes you Kale, and you may not believe me, but its true, he told me this because some guy by the name of Cole is here, and from what James said, hes not a fan of this Cole guy, its probably because this Cole guy is a lot cuter than James, which means James would have competition something I don’t think he has had before has he?”
“Cole…” He was dead. He couldn’t be here, he couldn’t have it wouldn’t work, Cole wasn’t here. He died last year, at an attack, death eaters attacked him last year at an Inn, this wasn’t happening. Storming down stairs, if he was here, then James and Aaron and probably the others knew too. I looked at James, there were tears forming in my eyes but I didn’t care, “When did he get here?”
“When did he get here James? When?”
I looked at her, great now she hated me, again. “About a week ago”
“Were you ever going to tell me he was here?”
“I thought you knew, I mean with that ring on your finger and everything.”
I looked down at it, when ever Cole was near the ring turned a light shade of blue, of course with everything going on the last thing I was going to do was look at a ring. “Where is he?”
James looked at me, “He’s are new COMC, teacher, but I don’t think you should be dating a teacher Kale, I mean I think you should at least wait until we graduate.”
“Wait? I’ve been waiting, so who’s idea was it to come up with the whole dead thing?”
“It was your fathers, the only one who likes this guy was you and Aaron, no one else, and we have good reason.”
“You have no reason, James none, so who cares what his family did, he didn’t do it.”
“I care, his family killed my sister Kale, and that may not mean anything to you, but it means a damn lot to me.” Turning my head away from her, whatever emotions I had for her, at the moment they were gone, she could go off and be with him for all I cared. Knowing what his family did, and what he did, meant a lot too me. She looked at me, “James I’m sorry…”
“Whatever.” Getting up and going to the guys side of the dorm, I knew she wouldn’t follow me she would be off going outside of the castle to go see Cole, the love of her life. She could go for it, I wasn’t going to be there when she needed me. Would she ever need me? She was growing up and I was just looking in. Maybe Aaron was right, maybe it was time to move on, but her lips on mine, her being with me, made the moment feel so right. I knew it did and I knew if she were to go off with Cole that she felt it too, I knew she had feelings for me, she was bad at hiding her emotions, well some times that was, but she liked me, she had feelings for me, even if she did date other people she probably wouldn’t feel the way she felt when she was with me.
Hearing the constant chatter down the hall, bumping into James, I figured they had another fight. Kale looked at me, “You knew too didn’t you?” Shaking my head, it was too early for this, now I was getting blamed for something, she was going insane. I looked at her, “Knew about?”
“Cole? Your dead death eater boy friend?” Laughing to myself, “aww no, what about him?”
“He’s back, you can stop playing dumb Sirius.” He was back? I clutched my hand, “You’re not seeing him Kale.” She looked at me, “I am too, your not stopping me, and neither is no one else, we’ve been away from each other long enough.”
I looked at her, “And for good reason, you don’t need him, and he doesn’t want you, if he wanted you Kale, he would have came sooner don’t you think. He would have been there for you when you were feeling hurt, but who was there for you? Not Cole, but Me, Aaron, and James, and Libya and at times yes Jason. But not him.”
She looked at me, she was crying. Way to go Sirius, make your baby sister cry. I sighed, she needed to hear it sometime, and she knew it was true.
She walked outside the dorm, and I looked at Aaron, he shrugged, “Let her do what she wants mate.”
I looked at him, “What about you loving her? Don’t you want a chance to date her, anyone? Anyone but him would do.”
Aaron laughed, “I think we should just wait and see what your sister does.”
They didn’t know anything. They didn’t know how I felt, what I was going threw, no one did. They don’t know what its like to have lost someone they have loved, they didn’t know what being lied to for a year felt like, they didn’t know. I walked over to the COMC hut and looked inside there was Cole, I knocked, and he answered.
“Hey…” he smiled at me, I stood there and he invited me in, taking a seat on his couch, “I thought you were dead? Where were you?”
He looked at me and sighed, “I was away, off on business and stuff.”
“Business, you may be a year older than me Cole but I know that you and ‘business’ don’t get along.” He looked at me and laughed, “Haven’t changed a bit have you?”
Shaking my head, then shrugging, “Kind of, I just got into a yelling match with James and Sirius, life has been so complicated ever since you left.”
He looked at me and nodded “I know..”
July 23rd, 2008, 3:11 am
Sorry for the short post, hopefully my next one will be way longer. :)
CH.12 - Getting her back
Life for me hadn’t been easy that previous year. It hard, that I had to leave Kale, even though I was a couple of years older than her, and we would have to separate sooner or later, staging my death, and having her dad involved in it was even harder. I wouldn’t be able to talk to her, comfort her, make her happy, and see her grow up some. I didn’t want to be away from her any longer, I wanted to marry her, when she graduated. How would she react to that any way? How would her dad react to that, he didn’t like me much, and James hated me, not to mention her brother hated me. However, Kale made me keep going and she was the only thing that really mattered to me. I looked at her and smiled, “So you got into an argument with James and Sirius, that’s not like you guys at all.”
She nodded, “James and I use to date, sometimes though I wish we didn’t date, because as friends, things have been so awkward. But I miss him, Cole, I mean he means a lot to me, and me being in his arms, him comforting me, and his lips on mine, it just made me feel…” she paused. Then looked at me, “I’m sorry.”
I smiled, it had hurt me that I was replaced, but I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. Then she looked at me, and looked back down. What had happened with her? She wasn’t the same, she was so depressed so gloomy, and she use to be so happy, so bubbly so random. I sighed, and then looked at the fire, “I remember gazing at the stars you know? When the skies were clear, and when we were dating.”
“Yeah I remember that.” She said with a smile, I smiled back at her, “I missed you so much.” He said pulling me into a hug, she hugged me back. Then she laughed, “I missed your laugh too.” I said moving her hair that was in her face, and tucked it behind her ear. She smelled so good, like vanilla and flowers, I blushed, okay maybe I was getting over my head. Would she love me like how she use to? Or would it hurt her too bad, for me to love her, since I have hurt her so much. I know saying sorry, wasn’t going to help and even though I did say it, I wanted her to really know, sure maybe to Kale sorry did mean something, but maybe that was because I was gone for what had seemed forever.
I looked at him and smiled, “You know what I’ve missed the most about you?” I looked at Cole, his brown hair spiked up, his blue eyes gazing into mine. His flirty grin, his laugh, his everything. “What, have you missed about me, Kale?”
Looking at him, and smiling, “Everything.” He nodded and looked back at the fire, he wasn’t very chatty which meant something was wrong, “what’s wrong?”
“Don’t lie to me Cole.”
“It’s just nothing, I just need to clear my mind.”
“Ok, I better get back to the common room.”
He nodded and I looked around the hut, and smiled and started my way back to the castle. Sighing to myself, the skies were clear, and it was heading off to be noon. I looked around and noticed James sitting outside with his guitar. I laughed, who was he trying to impress this time? Taking a seat by him, “I’m sorry about earlier, James.” He nodded, “its ok.” I nodded, “Are you sure, I mean with what Cole’s family did, I mean maybe I shouldn’t be hanging with him, but there’s just something about him.” James looked at me a bit puzzled, or maybe he was trying to hide his real emotions, I wasn’t going to stick around and try to figure out James today. I need to figure out who I had feelings for. Did I really like James more then a friend? Or was I just need in desperate for someone to talk to? How did I feel about Cole, he was gone for so long, Did I really want to be with him again? Would he hurt me again? Would he just walk off and leave? Or was he dating someone else?
Sighing again and then leaning on James, “my head hurts.” He smiled and leaned his head against mine, “It’s going to be ok, and we could always go to the nurse.”
I looked at him, “So why did you kiss Fleur the night of the dance?”
He looked at me, “She came on to me, I talked about what she did, all she could do was laugh and said I wanted it, and seeing you, hurt me, I didn’t want to kiss her, but you probably don’t believe me and that’s ok.”
I looked at him, “I believe, you for some reason.” I said laughing, “Good,” he said I smiled and then laughed and looked at him, “I think I’m going to the nurse.”
He looked at me, “Want me to come with you?” I nodded, and we made are way to the hospital wing, I began to feel really dizzy and the room started to spin, he looked at me and I stumbled, and shook my head. Making our way to the hospital wing, the nurse looked at me, “What’s wrong with you miss?”
“Not feeling so well that’s all.” She looked at me, “Eaten today?” I shook my head, “Drank something?” I shook my head, she frowned, “Not healthy miss.” I nodded, and she handed me something to drink, “I want you to go to the great hall and eat something.” I nodded, “I will.” She smiled and sent me off. Seeing Aaron and some girl with him I smiled and he smiled back, and then looked at James and he smiled at James, and he smiled back. I for one was happy that everyone was ‘normal’ again.
I looked at her, even though Cole was back here, I still wanted to make Kale mine. Or would she choose Cole over me? It was hard; first I was competing with my best friend over a girl, and now her ex lover? “Kale, there’s something I need to tell you.” She looked at me, “Yes?”
“I… Will you meet me later, tonight maybe?”
“I’d like that.” She said with a smile.
What was I doing? What did she think of me? Maybe I should have just asked her, maybe I should ask her, and maybe tonight I would. Would it just make things even more awkward? First dates were tough, especially if you didn’t even know if this was a date. Walking into the common room, pacing back and forth. What was I going to do tonight? How would things, work tonight? Would be okay? Would it be a disaster? I hated anxiety. I looked at the time, it was 7pm walking by the lake, and meeting Kale she was with Cole. I grumbled, "Aww hey." He looked at me, and I looked at Kale. She smiled and kissed Cole on the cheek. My face twisted, what was that? She just kissed him, and didn't we just talk? I thought she had feelings for me. Didn't she have feelings for me. He just got here, how could I loose her?
Cole began making his way back to wherever he was going, I really didn't care anymore. I looked at her, "Hey James." So much for my date. I looked at her, "What was that?"
"What was what?"
"You and Cole are dating?" She looked at me, "No I just gave him a kiss on the cheek a good bye thing."
He looked at me, "Good bye forever or just good bye for now." She laughed, "Good bye for now." He looked at me, "Well thats good, because I really wanted to do this." Leaning in and kissing her she kissed me back. I smiled, "You kissed me back."
She nodded, "I know, I.. I wanted to." I smiled and hugged her, "I've missed you so much," She laughed, "Just don't hurt me again please?"
I nodded, "I wont. I promise"
July 26th, 2008, 7:07 pm
CH.13 - Drama
Walking around with James and laughing, and taking his hand in mine. I looked into his emerald eyes, and felt my self blushing. ‘Get over it Kale’ I laughed out loud, and he stared at me blankly and flashed his smile. I wanted to melt, he meant a lot to me, and besides he wasn’t bad looking either. I smiled at him, “James, how long have you’ve been crushing on me?”
He looked at me, “Since forever,” I paused, if he had liked me forever why didn’t he say anything. Why didn’t he break me and Cole apart? Maybe it was because he saw how much I was in love with Cole. What did Cole feel about me? I looked at James, what if he were to kiss another girl? What if he was just using me? I shook my head, he was my friend first, and he didn’t want to hurt me, it was an accident, or so I hoped it was. I looked around and sighed. Maybe life was meant to be complicated, however at the moment it was way more complicated then It should have been. Maybe I was bad luck, maybe if I were single, and got rid of the thought of boys for a while life wouldn’t have been so complicated.
Maybe if I were to stop and think for a while, and realize how great life was then maybe I could have been happy. I was happy, I had James, that all I really wanted. Aaron and I were friends again. Jason and I hadn’t talked in a while, but I could have caught up with him later on. Cole was here, and he wasn’t dead, someone I could go to and talk to, and let out all of my emotions, because he was the one that really did understand me, and in the end life was great, maybe it was me, who was making things so complicated.
“You ok Kale, looks like something is bothering you…” I looked at him, “Fine, just a bit tired.”
“Did you eat,” James said holding my hand a bit tighter and then smiling again, I nodded. “Come on James we should be getting off to class, I mean I haven’t been doing so well in my classes, I guess you could say my mind has been some place else.” He laughed, and I smiled, although I didn’t find it very funny, my classes had been slipping and I didn’t like it. I wanted to do well, when we made our way to Herbology, I looked at professor Neville he seemed liked he had a hard day, maybe it was the nargles. Looking around through the crowd of Slytherins, I saw Jason, he looked different. Pale and tired. Come to think of it, I hadn’t seen Jason in a while, only in COMC. He only went there to keep his eye on Cole, it was quite a joke he was playing.
When the class was over, I smiled at James, but decided I need some alone time. Running my fingers through my hair and starting to walk through the halls I saw Jason, “Hey Jason.”
He looked at me, “Kale… there’s something I need to tell you.”
“What is it?”
“You know Cole is a parslemouth right?” I nodded, “Yeah he told me that when we first starred dating.” I said with a smile, he looked at me, “Oh alright then.”
I looked at Jason, “So what have you’ve been up to, haven’t seen you around anywhere really.” He looked at me, “I’ve been around doing stuff.”
“What kind of stuff?”
“None of your business Kale.” I stopped, maybe Jason changed but maybe he had changed in a bad way. I looked back at Jason, “Oh um… ok.”
I looked at her, I didn’t want to hurt her again. I didn’t want to tell her what I was doing. What the pure slytherins were doing. Gryffindors had to be avoided. Kale had to be avoided, and if he found out, I would be done for. I looked at her, “I’m sorry…” seeing the look of hurt on her face, seeing how bad I was treating her, maybe I should have just cut her out of my life forever. It wouldn’t hurt either, now that she was with Potter. I sighed and looked at Fleur, she looked at me, “What do you need Jason?” I looked at her, “Nothing beautiful.” She glared at me and laughed, “I hate seeing them together.”
I looked at her, “Same here sunshine.” She rolled her eyes at me and I laughed some more, “How do you plan on breaking them up again?”
She looked at me, “Well I can’t just kiss him again, and that didn’t work.” I looked at her, and shrugged. She had major jealousy problems. Even though Fleur was good looking she wasn’t so great on the inside. I looked at her, “Need some help breaking the two up then?”
She looked at me, “Aren’t you over her already? Shes nothing special.” I pulled out my wand, “Shut your mouth, don’t you ever ever say that.” She looked at me, “Prove it, prove it that she means something too you.”
“Next week is a quidditch match, I’ll prove it then.”
He looked at me, “Don’t mess with time, love.”
She looked down at her time, turner that was strapped around her neck. The thing she used to get James, and used it to kiss him that night of the dance. She smiled at me, “Thanks for the suggestion, this time, I hope I wont get caught.” She kissed me on the cheek and left. Rolling my eyes, and then making my way to Potions, we had Potions with the Gryffindors, and they were really starting to annoy me now.
I’m coming to get you. Turning swiftly, “Kale if that’s you, it’s not funny.” I’m going to get you. Breathing heavily, and speeding up my pace, this wasn’t getting funny. I was starting to get a headache, this whole or deal, was making my head hurt. I grabbed my head, and then Kale came up too me.
“That wasn’t funny, Kale.”
“I didn’t do anything.” She said looking at me confused, and a bit startled, as to why I was accusing her of doing something.
“I mean, it’s just I’ve been hearing things.”
”Oh so your like a person who can talk to ghost, that is so, freaky.” She said shaking her head and laughing, I looked at her, “Oh lighten up James, don’t grow up so fast, and besides it would be nice if you took me to Potions class, you know the class that you and I have next.”
“Yeah I guess.”
“You seem non like yourself James, are you ok?”
“But, if your not feeling well, you should go to the nurse.”
“I want you to be my girlfriend not my mom.”
“But James…” Her voice trailed off, and she sighed. I looked at her, “I’ll be fine,” and kissed her on the cheek, “Honest.”
She looked at me and smiled, “Alright, but if you don’t feel better by tomorrow, you’ll go to the nurse right?” I nodded.
“Sure thing mom.” She nudged me, “I am not your mom.”
Laughing and making are way to Potions class, I saw Jason with his group of friends, all eyeing James and I as we walked into the class room. It felt awkward, like they were watching everything that James and I did. What was Jason and the other slytherins planning?
I looked at James, “What’s going on today? You and Sirius didn’t do anything, to get on their nerves did you?” James shook his head, “No, but If you say yes to going on a date with me tonight, it might make Jason a bit mad.”
I smiled, “You’re horrible, but I’ll go on that date with you.”
Just then, Cole entered the room, “Excuse me professor, but I have something for the NEWT students to do today in COMC, well my top two students that is, it’s really important, and I hope you don’t mind them being excused from class?” Our potion’s teacher nodded his head.
“Good, I’m going to need Kale and Jason.” I looked at Cole, great. Now I had to be with the guy who I was so madly love with, and my ex. I was going to be with both of my ex’s at once? How was this possible, why was it me who had all the bad luck. I looked at James, he looked down, I could tell he was a bit upset that I was leaving, and probably more upset that I was leaving with Cole and Jason.
We walked until we got outside, “We’re going into the forbidden forest today.”
I looked at Cole, “Why?”
“There’s a task I need you both to do.”
“Like what?” I said, he looked at me.
“There has been Centaurs attacks.”
“What does that have to do with us?”
“We’re going to go have a nice little talk with them.”
“No way, I’m not doing it.” I said looking at Cole.
“You’re doing it Kale, and so is Jason. I wont’ be going into the forest with you two, but I’m sure you two can handle yourselves.”
I looked at him, and nodded then back at Jason I made my way into the forest with him by me. It was dark and wet. I hated the dark, I looked at Jason. Shadows moving from place to place, turning and moving closer to Jason.
“I, this was not what I signed up for when I took a NEWT leveled COMC class.” He looked at me, “Kale shush.”
“I mean honestly, isn’t this dangerous, don’t they have rules against this.”
“Be quiet Kale.”
“You shouldn’t shush a girl Jason, its rude.”
“KALE BE QUIET.”
Arrows flew from above from the sides, I looked down at my robe, and I’d been shot. I looked at Jason; he was trying to disarm them. I was going numb. “Kale, you need to try and get out of here.”
“No, I’m not going to go without you.” I said looking at him, holding my side. Using the Antonin Dolohov's curse, and saying it non verbally there arrows stopped. I fell, “Kale…” I looked at Jason.
“I’m sorry, goes for everyone.” I said feeling weak, I saw nothing else.
Feeling as though something were terribly wrong I clutched my stomach, it felt like I couldn’t breathe. I looked outside, It was starting to rain, I looked around. She’s gone. I clutched onto my head, my head was starting to hurt again. Kale?
The sky was dark, lightning and thunder, the rain was crashing onto the ground. Where was Kale? She loved the rain, she was going to be happy, during our break which was in 5 minutes. She would have been happy dancing in the rain. I smiled, she was a great person to be with, a person who you could talk to about anything. I sighed, however something wasn't feeling right. I couldn't figure it out, but something was starting to hurt.
July 30th, 2008, 3:11 am
Ch.14 - Get rid of her
How did I just loose her? Kale, she couldn’t have been dead. She wasn’t dead, she was just not well? This was my entire fault, I should have done something, instead of just trying to disarm them, and I should have been able to do something. I didn’t, I just watched them, I saw Kale, getting hit, she should have left, she should have gone, and she shouldn’t have stayed for someone as worthless as me. But she did, clutching my head, Cole took her to the hospital ward, maybe she would be ok, but what if she wasn’t. What if she gave up, and died. What would we do?
James, Aaron, Sirius? What were they going to do when they found out about her? What were they going to do to me? I sighed; this was starting to hurt, between the anxiety and the guilt, my head was starting to spin.
“What did you do to Kale?” Looking into James’ green eyes, “I didn’t do anything to your girlfriend.”
He pointed his wand at me, “Don’t give me that, I know something is wrong, what you did to her, your going to pay for.”
I looked at him, “Do you want me to tell you, or would you rather just blast me into pieces?” He lowered his wand, and I smirked, “Don’t be so attached James, live a little.”
He looked at me and gritted his teeth, “I don’t know what you’re talking about, go figure it out your self.”
He turned and I laughed. Gryffindor’s, were really annoying, the only one I liked was Kale, even though I wasn’t supposed to be speaking to her, or have feelings for her. I shook my head, maybe I shouldn’t have cared about Kale, sure we had a good run, but now, I didn’t even talk to the girl. I didn’t know her, or what she did anymore, and I shouldn’t have cared. Why did I care?
I laughed, and made my way to the other Slytherins. “You get rid of her?”
I looked at him, “Yeah I got rid of her, I’m pretty sure I did.”
“Pretty sure? Did you get rid of her, or is she going to make it.”
“I got rid of her, calm down.”
“Good I want her gone.”
“I know, and I told you I got rid of her, I follow out on my word.” I said feeling confident and looking at him, then turning on my heel, “And Malfoy, Make sure this goes no where.”
“It wont.” I said shaking my head and walking away.
He had done something to Kale, and I wanted to know what he did. Where was she? Was she going to be ok? I wanted, I need to know. Breathing heavily and sighing. I took her from you. You don’t deserve her James. She’s gone.
My head was starting to hurt, it looked as if the world was spinning, maybe I should have gone to the nurse for these headaches. I sighed, I guess I would go to the hospital wing, later on, seeing as Kale was right, like always, and I did promise her, that I would have gone. I sighed, and started to walk to the hospital wing. Kale. She looked so pale, so useless. What had happened to her? I wanted to hold her, comfort her. Would she make it? What if she didn’t make it? What would we do? Life wouldn’t be the same, nothing would, her laugh, her comfort, her just being there to listen to you, even if she had no real interest and listening to you.
Aaron came into the hospital wing, along with Sirius, and Libya. I looked at the three of them and sighed. “I don’t know what to do guys, I mean look at her.” Sirius looked at me, “There wasn’t anything you could do, James.”
I looked at him, “There should have been, I mean…” I couldn’t think this was so stressful so meaning less, trying to tell them how I felt. They wouldn’t understand anyway. I looked at Aaron, he just stared at her, “I think I’m going to go.” I said getting up and leaving the room, making my way to the room of requirement. Feeling the flames on my face, from the fire. Looking at it blazing before me, that’s how I felt, angry, upset.
“Don’t worry James, if you ever loose her, you can always have me.” I said turning my head and looking at Fleur. “Go away, Fleur, I don’t have time for you.”
She looked at me, “Aww I’m hurt James.” I looked at her, she smirked, “Come on James, you know you liked what we did at the dance, you know you liked seeing her hurt. Just as much as I did.” She said with a giggle.
“You’re not worth my time.” I said making my way out of the room of requirement. The sky was getting darker, and the rain was falling harder. I stared out of the window, from the dorm’s room. Aaron and Sirius walked in, “She’s not getting any better, James.” I shrugged, “Yeah so what.”
“What do you mean so what?” Aaron said looking at me
“Don’t question me, Aaron.” I looked at Sirius who just looked at the floor, then made his way to bed. I looked back at Aaron, “You don’t care about her at all, do you James.”
I shrugged again, I didn’t have to answer him, and I wasn’t planning to. He was annoying me, and I just wanted to get away. I knew I couldn’t have gone outside, because it was late, and the rain was falling pretty hard now. I didn’t want to go to the room of requirement because of Fleur, one of the most annoying, backstabbing people you would have met. I walked to the hospital ward, where I ran into the headmaster, “Oh hello professor.” He looked at me and smiled, “I didn’t see you, if you didn’t see me.” I looked at my dad and nodded, and he then looked at me, “Don’t be so tough on yourself James, she’ll be ok.”
“Then why isn’t she getting any better, dad.” He looked at me, “I don’t know son, but she will.”
“Why do you sound so sure.”
“Aren’t all adults sure of what they say?”
“No.” He looked at me, “Well then I don’t know what to say, James, but you should be going on your way. Make sure you don’t get caught by any one else.”
I looked at him, sometimes I wished my father didn’t work her, because I knew if it were anyone else, I knew they would have been tougher on me. I looked at Kale, she looked worse. I buried my head in my hands, “I’m sorry Kale… I’m so sorry.”
August 1st, 2008, 6:40 pm
Ch.15 - She's awake
The days were getting longer, and time itself, were moving slowly. Walking around the halls, while the other students whispered behind my back. I shrugged, they didn’t know what happened. Well no one really did know what happened; the only one who did know was Jason. I threw my hands into my pocket; I was going to miss Kale. She was still in the hospital wing, worse then every. The nurse had said that she wasn’t going to make it. The thought of that really did kill everyone, well the ones that were close to her. Even Cole wasn’t himself, being able to see her after a year, and then this happened?
My schedule had changed some, I wouldn’t go straight to the Great Hall for breakfast, but made my way to go and see Kale, just look at her, hold her cold hand, and wished that she would be ok. Then after that I would try to avoid Aaron, I really didn’t want to speak to him, seeing as he would just get in my face, and yell about how non caring I was towards her. I didn’t want to see Fleur; she was getting very annoying towards me. I just wanted to be alone, and with her. When I had a free period, I went to go see Kale again, drop off books, homework, lessons, extra notes; I had taken for her, seeing as when she got better she wouldn’t be so behind. She was going to get better, so that really didn’t’ matter.
I walked into the hospital ward, and saw her, taking a seat and sighing, “Kale… I don’t know if you can hear me, but I am sorry. For everything, It’s just I don’t know, maybe when we were younger, I should have tried to gone out with you, maybe I should have tried and took you away from Cole, as bad as that sounds, I mean I just.. I love you Kale.”
Nothing, it didn’t seem how much, I poured my heart out, each and every day she would just lay there. Why was it her? Why couldn’t it have been Jason, no one would really care, if this was done to him. I shook my head, I was just sounding more and more negative every day, and that wasn’t the way to go. I looked at her, “I miss you Kale.”
Her eyes opened, “Kale…” I whispered, tears were starting to roll down my cheek, I turned the other way and whipped my arm against my face. She looked at me, “Aww your crying, that’s cute, you should really do it more often.” She said forcing a smile, I could tell that she was still in pain. I smiled at her,
“I’m glad your back Kale.” I said running my fingers through her hair, and taking a seat close to her.
She smiled at me, “Where’s Aaron, Sirius, Jason, Libya?”
I looked at her, “They’ll come later, and I just, I don’t know can’t stay away from you?”
“So where did you pick up that cheesy line?”
“Your brother, and his bad attempts at picking up girls.”
“James why is your hair Blue?”
He laughed, “Like it? It’s some spell that makes my hair change colors, and I like blue, so yeah that’s why my hair is blue.”
She laughed some, “That’s cute James, but Jason didn’t tell you what happened? I mean with me being here, or how I landed here.”
I shook my head, “He had a good laugh about it.”
She looked shocked, hurt, maybe I shouldn’t have told her that, “It’s going to be ok Kale, you should focus on getting some rest.”
“I have been getting rest, by the looks of all that home work, it seems as if I’ve been here for weeks.”
“Well two weeks, if you want to exact.”
“Two weeks? Oh great.” She mumbled, “Now when I go back everyone is going to act all lovey dovey on me, and that’s just...”
“Great?” I said with a smirk.
“Oh shush James.”
I looked at her, “But you like my cute going on ramblings, things.”
She looked at me, “hmm sometimes.” She said folding her arms.
“Ouch I’m hurt Kale,” I said with a smile, and kissed her on her for head.
“You’re hurt? You’re not the one in the bed.” She said with a small laugh. The nurse came, and that’s when I knew I should be saying my good byes. I kissed her softly on the lips, and pulled back when the nurse tapped me. I could feel myself get hot, and I looked at Kale whose face was turning a small shade of pink, I smiled to myself and then made my way out of the hospital ward.
She was better? I could feel it, it seemed like the weight of the world was being lifted off of you. I ran towards the hospital ward, where the nurse was telling Kale a few things, I smiled at her, “Kale!” I said with a smile, then turned and looked at other people in the hospital, ‘Nice going Aaron’ I thought, Making my way to go see Kale, and hugging her, “Don’t you ever, do this to us again Kale, we were all going mad.”
She laughed, “Sorry I will try not to get hurt, in the near time future.”
“Good, because all of us were very sad, especially your boyfriend, I mean at first he was angry, then really sad, we even had a small blow up, although those are what’s the word common now?”
“Yes they are, but I really wish you two would just go back to being best friends again.”
“We’re getting there, just very slowly, he’s just changed some I guess, and with those headaches he’s been getting, well they make him a real grouch, if you know what I’m saying.”
“Well James was the one to always be moody,” she said joking, it really didn’t matter, made me laugh, something I hadn’t had done in a while.
“Well even if he was the moody one, he was always the one trying to care for you the most, but someone was a bit blinded by Cole.”
“Must we not talk about him?”
“Well why shouldn’t we, I mean he was your first true love and all that nonsense.”
“I just don’t want to talk about him, that’s all.” I looked at her; she really didn’t want to talk about him. Even though that was weird of Kale, but maybe she was just overly tired.
“Alright, I guess I should go tell your brother, that you’re awake, so he can go back to pulling his pranks on people, and not being so sad.” With that I left Kale to be by herself and have the rest of the day, for her to catch up on more rest.
I walked into the hospital ward, and saw her, she looked better, color was slowly returning to her face, she would be able to eat, which was good, it seemed as if she hadn’t had eaten in a while. I smiled at her, “Hey”
“Oh its you.”
“What’s that suppose to mean?” I said looking at her.
“Don’t play nice now, I heard how you laughed, about how I got here.”
“I have to act mean towards you Kale, I’m in Slytherin, its what my friends expect of me.”
“It didn’t matter to you if I was in Gryffindor, when we were dating.”
“Things have changed, Kale.”
“Like me, for one.”
“You don’t seem different Jason.”
“I have, and I really shouldn’t be here, but I just wanted to give you this.” They were Bertie Bots Every Flavored Beans.
I smiled at him, “Thanks Jason.” He smiled back, even though I found these gross, he seemed to liked them, well not all of them just a few, like anyone else.
I laughed and looked out of the window it was going to be ok after all. Being stuck in the hospital for weeks, I must have missed things, and a lot of things for that matter. What were the students saying about me being gone? Who were they blaming it on? It wasn’t anyone’s fault really, except for mine. I should have stayed quiet, like Jason had told me to; he was trying to ‘protect’ me.
“You didn’t get rid of her?” I shook my head, “I tried sir, she, she’s tougher than she looks sir.”
He looked at me, “I will have none of your nonsense, and I will have order.”
“Yes sir.” He came towards me, his face was pale, his eyes were yellow, and he was wearing his cloak. My stomach began to hurt, what was I getting myself into?
August 10th, 2008, 2:09 am
CH.16 - Sectumsempra
I’m taking her away from you. You will never have her. I shook my head; I did have Kale though right? I mean she was well now she was caught up on all her work, me and her were spending more time together. From late chats at night till her falling asleep on my shoulder. While walking by the lake of Hogwarts and wrapping my arms around her, and then kissing her softly on the cheek. I smiled and looked at her, she looked tired, as if she hadn’t been sleeping in a while, or crying.
“You alright Kale?”
I looked at her with a look of confusion on my face, “You just don’t seem fine.”
“I’m fine James, honest.”
I smiled at her and kissed her forehead okay I wasn’t going to bother her anymore, or press the issue any further. She was stubborn after all, and I probably wouldn’t be getting answers from her. I rubbed my head, it was beginning to throb again, I grumbled to myself and looked at Kale she smiled at me, and leaned in close, “You should go to the nurse.”
I moved in closer to her, so close I could feel her breathing against my neck, I blushed slightly and looked at her, “I will, I’m sure its nothing.”
She laughed at me, “Don’t be so sure James, I mean you never know.” I looked at her, “Alright I’ll go later Mom.” She laughed at me, “I don’t think your mom would like to kiss you as much as I do.” I could feel myself blushing, get over yourself James. It was if she was reading my thoughts.
“I think its quite cute that you blush.” She said, I looked into her stunning green eyes, her breathe was still lingering on my neck, I leaned even closer where I lips met, I wrapped my arms around her and deepened the kiss, she pulled away, “I should get going.” She said with a smile. I smiled at her.
I didn’t want her to go, I wanted to hold her for a little bit longer, but whatever she was going to do must have been important. I looked around a bit and sighed, man was I bored.
“Your going to loose her Potter,” I turned it was Jason.
“Oh take off Malfoy.” He glared at me, “and if I don’t?” I looked at him, “I’m out of here.” I said getting up he looked at me and laughed, “Like I said Potter, your going to loose her, so I’d watch out if I were you.”
I shook my head and still made my way, and caught up to Sirius and Aaron, they looked at me, “You alright James?”
“I guess I’m just tired, headaches don’t help me out either, you know?” Aaron looked at me, “What ever you say James.”
He looked at me, and I looked at him. I sighed then started to quicken my pace, maybe I just needed some alone time, that’s all I thought. Just alone time. I walked into the common room, and feel onto my bed, my head was throbbing even more, and I grabbed it, “What’s wrong with me?” I said out loud my eyes felt heavy and before I knew it I was fast asleep dreaming dreams that probably would never come true.
I didn’t want to leave James, but then again I really didn’t like public affection. I don’t know maybe I was asking for too much, maybe I should have been glad that I was with James. Don’t get me wrong, I was glad I was James, it was just after what had happened in the forest, and would he have been ok if I didn’t make it? What would he have done, would he have taken it out on Jason? I sighed, maybe I shouldn’t have worried.
I walked towards the library and noticed Jason, “Hey.”
“Get away from me.”
I looked at him, hurt mostly because we were such great friends, before we started dated.
“Umm oh ok…” I said making my way to a different table and pulling out a book to read, mostly on defense against the dark arts. I looked at Jason, his friends were sitting with him, maybe that’s why he didn’t want to be with me, maybe he was just embarrass. Although that didn’t make me feel any better, but at least it was better, than him just hating me for nothing.
As time passed, I looked around the library and grabbed my book bag, and started to walk towards the hall. I looked at Jason was at my side, “What did you want to talk about earlier Kale?”
“I just wanted to say hey, but I guess you were sort of busy.”
He nodded at me, “Yeah I was me and my friends are doing stuff.”
“Aww homework studies and what not.”
“Since when do you study?”
“You know what I mean kale.”
“I really don’t know what you mean; I don’t even know you anymore. I mean when we friends it was amazing, you were amazing, but then after we broke up, I don’t know what happened to us, we never talk or anything, and I’m not going to lie Jason, I do miss you.”
He looked at me, and I looked down, “But then again, Life moves on?”
He nodded, “Yeah it moves on, and its moving on pretty fast.”
“Not really, I think its just moving.” I said with a small laugh, he looked at me, “I miss that, you laughing.”
I turned around and saw his friends coming, “I guess you should act all mean towards me, seeing as your friends are here.”
He nodded “yeah something like that.”
‘Sectumsempra’ I looked down at my robes, I was bleeding, a sharp pain was running up my back, the last person I saw was Jason.
August 18th, 2008, 5:53 am
Ch.17 - I'm so sorry...
“Mr. Potter, will you please come with me?” I looked at Neville, feeling the gaze of the other students watching my every move. I didn’t show it on the outside, but on the inside I was a bit nervous, I mean I shouldn’t have been Neville was a family friend of my family, so why was there a feeling of something bad. Something had happened, maybe I was failing, or maybe something worse. I could feel the air around me get cold. You’re loosing her. Shes going to be mine soon. I shook my head.
“Kale, shes in the hospital,” he whispered to me. I looked at him, I felt myself go colder, and looked at him, “You’re joking right.”
“I’m afraid not, she’s awake, she just wants to talk to you.” I looked at him, and giving him a slight nod, and making my way out of the class, hearing the laughs of a common Slytherin, Jason and his pack of friends. Was this from his doing? It couldn’t have been, he had loved her, and as much as I didn’t like it myself, he and Kale still had something. I wouldn’t say they have loved each other, but they were definitely close friends.
I made my way to the hospital wing, and looked at her. She had been crying, she was hurting, on the inside and out. I looked at her and forced a smile on my face, I held her hand. She looked at me, “James…”
“Hey” I mumbled
“I’ve been thinking, about us.” She had tears in her eyes and she was crying even harder, “Kale, don’t cry please don’t cry.” I said holding her hand even tighter.
She looked at me and took in a deep breath, “I… I think we should break up.”
I let go of her hand, “Why?”
She looked at me, “I… I just think we should.”
I nodded and looked at her, “Oh, well I’ll just be here. I guess.”
She looked down and she was still crying, “Get better alright.” I added, and started to make my way from the hospital ward, mad, confused, but most of all hurt. I didn’t understand as to why she was breaking up with me. I hadn’t done anything wrong, I hadn’t had hurt her? Had I? I mean there was thing with Fleur but that was way over with, Kale knew that, she had forgiven me for it, and we we’re doing great together. What was wrong with me?
I didn’t want to break up with him. I knew I had hurt him, and that was hurting me, I was crying so hard, my mind was foggy and my eyes were red and puffy, my eyes were cloudy and probably had a hint of yellow in them. I turned on my side and just threw my face onto the pillow. Why me? Why did I have to loose him? Cole, maybe he would understand, but I didn’t want to be with Cole not right now, I mean he would get it, I did confide in him a lot, and I have loved him, I mean I did love him, just not like I use to. This world was crazy, but I happened to think mine was crazier. Thinking of Cole, and turning around and hearing him walk in.
“You look really bad.” He said, I looked at him and sighed.
“I was joking, but I guess you’re not in the joking mood, but you do look really upset.”
I nodded, “I am upset, I just broke up with James, I want to be with him Cole, but with everything that has happened, I mean what if I…”
“What if you what?”
“With everything that has been happening, I don’t think I’m safe, I mean I know that sounds insane, but…”
“And if anything happens to you, you don’t want James to get hurt, just in case you don’t come back,” Cole said I nodded, he took my hand.
“Kale, nothing like that will ever happen to you, not as long as I’m around, when I’m around, you’ll be around, I promise.”
“Thanks Cole.” He nodded and kissed my forehead. People began to come and go, who knew how the word got across the school but it didn’t matter. Who knew we’re life was going to take us.
Maybe I should have talked to my parents, I mean I think now would have been a great time to write them, unless Neville wrote them. But that really didn’t matter. Who was after my little sister? I mean she didn’t have any enemies here, everyone seemed to like her. Well everyone except for Fleur, but she wouldn’t do that. Would she? Did she really want James that badly, that she was willing to make my sister land in the hospital? I walked into the hospital and took a seat by Kale, we didn’t say much, maybe she wanted space, and maybe I should have just gone. I looked at her and she looked back at me.
“I’m writing mom, Kale.”
“Why? I can take care of myself Sirius, plus it doesn’t matter, I’ll be out of here in no time.”
“Obviously not, if you keep getting hurt.”
“It’s not like I’m doing this to myself.”
“Well if it happens again, I’m writing mom.”
“Fine. But that’s if it happens again, who knows, maybe its just…”
“Just what? It’s just that someone isn’t after you.”
“Sirius… it isn’t like that.”
“Then what is it Kale?”
“I don’t know…”
“Yeah you seem to never know.” I said getting up and storming out of the hospital, maybe that was harsh, but it didn’t matter. My parents needed to know, but then again it wasn’t up to me, was it?
August 29th, 2008, 6:38 am
Ch.18 - Spring Break
What was wrong with me, why was I disappointing everyone? I mean I didn’t deserve this did I? I just wanted every thing to go back to being normal, me hanging out with James and Aaron like we use to, when we were younger, things changed a lot as we got older maybe it was for the good, but it really didn’t feel like it at the time being. It hurt me to know that I had hurt him. To take it back I wouldn’t I mean if I were to leave him here all by himself, that would hurt him even more right? Or would it have been best for me to stay with him, and then leave him and let him know always and forever, that I would be there for him.
I didn’t know what I was feeling, was I sad, angry, confused? Or just the mixture of all three? I suppose it doesn’t even matter, James probably hated me, I mean who wouldn’t I didn’t have a reason for loosing someone I loved, and that made things worse, and If I tried explaining myself, I’d probably make myself look like a fool in front of him.
This was James we were talking about, the most handsomest guy in school, girls were chasing after him, all those times he would have flirt in front of other girls, but made his way back to me, even though I found that annoying, it was quite attractive. The way he wanted to hold me all the time, and when his lips met mine, the more I knew he loved me. The way he would stroke my hair and whisper things in my ear, the way he was there for me when I needed him to be. Why did I choose to loose him? Maybe I shouldn’t start having second doubts, I mean not now, what is done is done, right?
I made my way down the hall and into the room of requirement I just wanted time to think and then again it was what I had wanted. I walked in and there I saw him, and her. James and Fleur back together. Was he messing with me, was this to get back at me? I looked at him, I could feel my heart rate just slow down, the world stopped spinning, I looked at him and my eyes wondered away. I began to make my way out, away from James away from her. She had won him right? I mean making James some sort of trophy was a bit mean, but then again it was true. She had wanted him, even though she may not have shown it, or maybe she had – had shown it and time had caught up with her. I sighed okay so maybe my last year at Hogwarts was beginning to become a bit more dramatic then any other year I had.
There was really no one who I could turn to, I mean who would know what I was going through? Cole, he would understand, he always understood me. I wanted to make my way out when Fleur called me, “Hey Kale, so I was wondering, James and I are pretty close, and maybe you should come I don’t know join us sometime while we’re on a date maybe bring someone else.” She smirked at me, I looked at James his head hanged low, and he wouldn’t even look at me.
“No thanks; I’m sort of busy, maybe later on though.” I said with a smile. That was not what she had wanted her smirk turned into something emotionless. I shrugged, I wasn’t going to waste my time on her little game, I really didn’t have anything to do, with Spring Break coming up. I had liked the spring weather so far this year, some rain, not to hot not to cold it was as they say perfect. If only my life were perfect. I made my way, away from Potter again, and headed to have a nice long talk with Cole.
Fleur was really starting to annoy me, I mean we we’re talking, and she goes and leans in and kisses me? Then the whole idea about me and her dating? Was she mental? I didn’t want to say anything in front of Kale, how could I? I mean it was awkward now that she had dumped me for no good reason. Was it because of Cole? Was she planning on dating him again?
I wanted her to be with me, I missed her being with me. I mean I knew she was here with me, but it just wasn’t the same. I loved her, but I guess even that wasn’t enough, seeing as even though I tried to pour my heart out, she had other plans. It hurt me a lot, and the headaches weren’t helping me so much either, but what could I have done about it? There was nothing right? I mean try to win her back, there were so many times when I had tried to do so. It just wouldn’t work anymore, I mean I think she was tired of taking me back and breaking up with me, something we did regularly. Maybe we were just meant to be friends, really close friends?
Close friends, Aaron and Kale, missed them a lot, I missed us a lot we hadn’t hung out for a while not like we use to. Kale was busy doing who know what? Aaron was studying most of the time getting his homework done and he was planning on returning for his spring break back home. I didn’t want to go home for spring break, I loved staying here and not to mention it is a lot more bigger when the halls aren’t crowded with loads a kids, instead maybe about one here or another there. Maybe I could just talk to Kale, just about spring break.
What was she planning on doing for spring break. Get over yourself James, your not going to have Kale, you had lost her. The little voice inside my head was right, hopefully now the headaches would leave.
September 1st, 2008, 6:14 am
Walking down the steps of the boys common room, and noticing the fire dying slowly, the dark taking over the room, and there she was sitting on the couch just sitting there. I looked at her and sighed, maybe I should have just gone back upstairs; I mean what was I going to say? I didn’t want to make her feel guilty, or make her feel like what she had done was wrong. I mean maybe she had a good reason to break up with. Then again another side of me was dying to know. Well here goes nothing, my heart was beating faster, get over yourself you two are just friends. I walked and took a seat by her, “Hey.” I said not looking at her.
She was talking softly which was odd, what was bothering her? Should I have asked? “Hey.” She said I looked at her.
“Are you ok Kale?”
She nodded, “Yeah, of course.” She said smiling.
“Honestly, Kale.” I said taking her hand, her hand was a bit cold but I didn’t want to take it off I wanted to hold her again.
“James… please.” She said I looked at her, and took off my hand off of hers. I sighed a bit heavily and turned away from her again. She sighed too and leaned on her arm, I looked at her again. She turned. This wasn’t going anywhere, I didn’t know what to do, should I have just stayed, try to talk to her? Would it have helped?
I looked at her, “Kale, please why won’t you talk to me?”
She looked at me, “It’s just been hard that’s all.”
I looked at her, “Then let me help you.”
“James, I… I can’t. I mean I don’t want you to. I don’t want anyone to.”
“Except for Cole?” I said my voice sounding a bit cold. Maybe that was uncalled for. She looked at me, “No… I mean Cole just understands me, but I don’t have feelings for him, not like I use to.”
“Does he have feelings for you…” I mumbled, I didn’t want to know because if the answer was yes, I knew it would hurt, and that was the last thing I wanted, to be hurt.
She looked as if she were going to cry, she looked hurt, upset before we even had this conversation, “I don’t know, I haven’t asked him or anything, the only thing I have done to him really is complain to him. I’m not dating him; we just talk a lot, because well you know…” Her voice stopped.
I looked at her, “Did you hear that…” she said
“Hear what Kale?”
“Never mind, I’m guessing I’m just hearing things.”
I laughed, “Just like old times huh?”
She looked at her, “Not really.”
I stopped laughing, “I wish you were… you again, I mean you’ve just been acting different.”
“I’m growing up James.”
“Growing up? Since when? Your graduating Hogwarts soon, you should have grown up already.”
“Well that’s the only excuse I could think of,” she said with a smile. I laughed and looked at her.
“Well at least you did grow up.”
“Aww why you didn’t like me when I was all well what’s the word not matured?”
I laughed, “No, I just like you this way too.”
“Good, because well I don’t plan on changing”
“Well good, that means now you’ll have more guys to choose from, I mean date.”
She looked at me, “I don’t want to date anyone, or get close to anyone, I mean not anymore.”
I looked at her, “Why not?” I said a bit confused.
“I mean, what if I don’t make it, I mean if I… if I get hurt, and I don’t come back and then.” She stopped, her voice was getting shaky and there were tears in her eyes. I wiped them away and pulled her close to me, wrapping my arms around her. She hugged me back, and sighed deeply. I sighed and just held her.
“You shouldn’t think like that, your not going to leave us any time soon, I’m sure you wont.”
She pulled away, “You don’t know that James, no one knows that.” He looked at me, “Look if it means me and you sleeping on this chair every night, so you know, you won’t be going anywhere, then so be it.”
She laughed, “It would be nice, but I don’t think it’s going to be so comfy.”
He looked at her, “Well you’re allowed in the guys’ dorm, and I think if you explained yourself to my dad, he’d understand.”
She looked up at me, “I guess we can run it by him later on.”
“Why later on, why not now?”
“Because it’s late, and we’re not supposed to be out right now.”
He smiled at me, “Alright, I guess we’ll talk to him tomorrow about it.”
I put my arm around it, “So is this why you haven’t been sleeping, scared and stuff?”
“That’s a very nice way to put it James.” She said with a laugh.
“I thought it would be, I mean that is the reason right? Or is Libya up late doing stuff like studying?”
“We’ll it wouldn’t matter, anyway I don’t mind her studying but yes the reason is I am scared. Scared of a lot of things.”
I looked at her, “It’s going to be ok Kale, it always is isn’t it?”
She nodded, “I wish sometimes, you weren’t always right.”
“Why jealous?” I said laughing, she pushed me slightly.
“Why yes, I am Potter.” I smiled at her, “Good I whispered in her ear.”
I moved back slightly and looked into her eyes.
“So what’s with you and umm Fleur?”
“Nothing, she does that on purpose while you come to talk me, while we’re fighting, because she knows it hurts you.”
“You said that very easily.”
“It sounds a lot better in my mind.”
I looked at him, “Oh…” It still didn’t feel right, “James, you wouldn’t hurt me… I mean on purpose like with Fleur…”
“Like cheat on you… if we we’re dating?”
“No of course not.”
I looked at him and smiled, “I’m sorry, for everything, for making it look like I wasn’t interested in you, for breaking up with you, for hurting you. I mean everything.”
He smiled at me, “It’s ok, you know I think later on we should just hang out, with Aaron, like how we use to.”
“Yeah me too.” Although I really didn’t want to do that, I wanted to be with James, but I had lost him, something that I was afraid of, something I was trying to prevent, trying to make him not get hurt, it just all back fired, and that really sucked.
September 16th, 2008, 4:03 am
CH. 20 - Comfort me
A/N - I'm sorry for the late posting, its just with school and all i've been busy with studying, and trying to do everything "correctly." :lol: But here's another post even if it is a bit short..
I didn’t know why I was acting the way I was, why I was feeling so sad, and depressed all the time. It was like life itself was out to get me and people in it, just didn’t want me around. Maybe this happened to everyone at one time or another who knew right? I mean me myself didn’t know much but I knew for sure that I couldn’t’ be the only feeling like this? I didn’t want to talk to anyone, except for Cole but that was because I felt as if he were the only one who did understand me. He was the only one that understood me right? My mind was playing games with me, sometimes I just wanted to be alone with James but then I always realized how much it did hurt to be with him. Then I wanted to be with Cole even though it was beyond awkward to talk to him without saying the words I love you, because I didn’t love him, not how I use to love him anyway.
Walking down the stairs as the sun began to walk through the windows itself and hit my cold face. It was warm something I wanted to feel again, I smiled at him, as they walked down, Aaron and James. Looking around and wondering where Sirius was but I suppose it didn’t matter anymore.
“What about breakfast, I mean when was the last time we ate together?” Aaron said with a smile, I laughed, I didn’t know myself.
It seemed centuries since we had been together it was nice to be with the two as friends. Even though at times I didn’t want to be. I looked at James and he looked at me with that familiar smile of his, was he really happy? Did he hurt as much as I did? It wasn’t fair for him though, To leave someone you love because your afraid of hurting them in the end. But it was true, I would end up hurting James, or I had already done so.
“Breakfast, sounds great really, Coffee sounds way better.” I said looking at Aaron. We made our way out of the common room, with a bits of stares from the other students, they happened to had stared a lot, with all the news of me being attacked. That also sucked being the news of everything at every time. Ever since I had been getting attacked my life started to go downhill and for some reason I didn’t know why it was happening. Why was it happening? Did I just have bad luck?
“So what have you two been up to lately?” Aaron said looking at me and James, James shrugged and I looked at Aaron, “Nothing much, studying and stuff.” I said with a nod.
“You studying, seriously what are you doing?”
“Alright alright, I’ve been hanging out with Cole, that’s about it.” He stopped and stared at me and then shook his head. I didn’t know it was such a big crime anyway. James looked at me, even more hurt then he had looked this morning. I sighed okay so maybe things were beyond different from when school started but was that really my fault? Or did we all play a little part in it. Maybe it was my fault, maybe I should have just left Hogwarts transfer out maybe? Then again that wouldn’t make sense it was my last year here and Hogwarts was my home, my second home anyway. Where people understood people all except for me.
Taking a seat and noticing Libya her hair looked different, in a good way, she had looked different like a really really good make over type thing. I smiled at her, “What happened to you?”
She giggled, “I thought I’d try something new.” I smiled at her, “Well you look nice.” She smiled at me, “Thanks Kale.”
I looked over at Aaron who was blushing and couldn’t help but laugh, I sat by James this way Libya would sit directly by Aaron, he glared at me and I laughed even more. I thought it was cute, James looked at me with confusing and I whispered in his ear what was happening. He smiled at me. I dropped my eye contact with him and played with my food that was sitting on my plate, he looked at me every now and then and I wanted to look back at him, tell him that I wanted to be with him but was afraid to do so. I got up and began walking down the halls; it was killing me sitting by him. I didn’t want to explain myself or anything, that’s when I crashed into Jason.
He stared at me; his grey blue piercing eyes staring back at me, “Hey…” he whispered.
“Hi…” I mumbled, he shoved his hands into his pocket and looked at the grown then back up at me, I looked at his arm, there were marks on it, I was going to ask why, but he must have been reading my mind.
“I’m fine, Kale, honest.”
“That’s just not normal that’s all.”
“I know, but I’m ok.”
“But… what happened?”
“It doesn’t matter.”
“Why won’t you talk to me anymore?”
He paused, “I don’t want to hurt you anymore.”
“I know I have, and I don’t want to, it’s the same reason you broke up with James and the same reason you don’t want to talk to him, because your afraid of hurting him aren’t you?”
I looked back at him he was right, but I didn’t want to show it, with everything happening I just cried, right then and there with Jason staring at me. I needed someone to comfort me, I ran into his arms and wrapped my arms around him. He pulled me in closer, it felt good to have someone comfort me, even if it wasn’t the person I wanted to do so.
“Looks like you moved on pretty fast Kale.” I turned it was James. Jason looked at him, and backed up some.
“I can’t believe you would do this Kale.” James said and looked at Jason, “With him again? The guy that has hurt you so much.”
“You hurt her too James, more than anyone could imagine.”
James took out his wand, “Shut your mouth Malfoy.”
“Make me Potter.”
“Would you two both stop? Your not making things any better, you two have both hurt me but life moves on and maybe you both should too.” That hurt me to say, I mean I know Jason had moved on, or so it had seemed like he did. But if James, moved on, I knew that would hurt me in the long run, I shook my head. Jason looked at me and I looked at James.
“Whatever, this is useless, I’m going.” Jason said leaving, I looked at James, “Was that really necessary?”
“It got rid of him didn’t it?”
“Look he was comforting me that’s all.”
“I could have done that you know, if you wanted me to.”
“That’s the thing though James, I don’t want you to…”
“But I want to.”
“James… all I do is end up hurting you and…”
“Life moves on doesn’t it?”
“Its not that simple though James, I mean...”
“You forgave me right, with everything I did that hurt you.”
“Yes but still.”
“Or did you just happen to move back, with being with Jason.”
“It’s not like that James, like I said I just wanted someone to comfort me, and Jason was there ok..”
He nodded, “Alright.” I began making my way down the hall again, as James made his way back to the great hall, Jason was there and he smiled, “So aww how things go with you and James?”
“Hes a bit upset that you were comforting me that’s all.”
“Well I would be to, if I saw my ex hugging her ex? That’s confusing isn’t it?”
“A bit yes.” I laughed and he smiled, “Look I can’t be seen by you, I mean my friends would kill me if they saw me and you together as friends and stuff.”
“Why? They didn’t care last year.”
“That was last year Kale now please just go away.”
So that was harsh, but I really couldn’t be seen with her, what if the others found out? What would happen to me, what would he do to me? He wanted Kale to himself, and no one was suppose to be with her. Talking to her would get me in trouble, but a part of me wanted to risk it. It was dumb of me to did what I had done, I had lost the perfect girl, maybe love hadn’t had struck me yet. Or maybe it did and I was just too dumb to realize it. Not to mention she really didn’t want anything to do with me, every one knew she wanted to be back with James, everyone but James.
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October 11th, 2008, 10:29 pm
I groaned, the spring break was coming, but I didn’t feel happy, I felt alone. Like no one understood me, well no one did understand me; everyone was too busy being happy, with friends and what not. I would just sit alone I wouldn’t even talk to James anymore, Aaron was too busy dating Libya, I never saw my brother around the school, Cole was busy teaching his students – being an adult. While I was just being me, even if that meant studying alone, watching the fire dim down, there was really no one to talk to.
It was late, the fire was really low, I could barley see anything. “Hey…” I looked over it was Aaron.
“Hey its you.” I said with a small laugh
“Yeah, aww I’m so confused.”
“Libya is confusing me, I don’t know if I should ask her out or be friends with her?”
“You two aren’t dating already? I just thought that you two were I mean…”
“So I must be a good flirt then huh?”
I laughed, “I think you should ask her out you two seem cute together.”
“I don’t know if I should, I mean there’s all these guys that like her and stuff, and I don’t think I’d be able to handle all the jealousy.”
“You Jealous? Since when?”
“Kale, since forever.”
I laughed, wow that was new to me, and I never though of Aaron as the one who were to get jealous, I mean he always seemed so mellow so laid back. I looked at Aaron, and Libya came down the stairs, she smiled at me and I smiled at her, she looked at Aaron, and he looked back at her. I laughed, and decided to make my way up to the room. I began walking, as the other two began to engage into there conversation. I looked up from the stair case and saw James; he yawned and messed up his hair with his hands. I looked at the floor, I missed being with him, more than anything, and I felt so invisible when I was around him. It was so different after we broke up, we would barley speak to each other and I didn’t want. I wanted him to notice me; I wanted him not to move on. I wanted a lot of things and I never got most of them, so why would that start now?
I stopped and he stared at me, I could feel myself blush, and shook my head. I heard him sigh. Or at least I thought I did. I continued making my way up to the common room. For some reason the only thing I could do was cry. I had no one really with me, I mean not anymore. It wasn’t like I needed a guy to be happy or anything, I just always felt sad. I buried my head into my pillow, it was starting to get light out, and I didn’t want to go to classes today, I didn’t want to see James. It wasn’t his fault I was feeling like this. It was mine, I just couldn’t, besides from the sadness I just felt so confused. I was the one that ended things, but how could I get back with being with James? I mean after everything I caused him. It wouldn’t be right, if anything it would be wrong.
Eventually, Libya made me go downstairs, even though she had done the refreshing with a flick of her wand of course. I walked downstairs and into a hall way. Where I saw James, just standing there talking with Aaron. Well if Aaron were there, then it would be ok, If I were there too right? Maybe If I just talked to Aaron, then things would be ok. I walked up to them and tried to speak, but nothing came out. ‘Kale you’re making a fool out of yourself.’
“Aww hey guys.” I mumbled, and looked at my feet lamely.
James looked at me, “Hey Kale.” He said, smiling. I smiled back.
Aaron stared at the two of us, and I looked at him lamely. He laughed at us, “So guys what do you wanna do?”
“I don’t know.” I said
”Why don’t we just hang in the common room?”
“I just got back from there.” I said looking at Aaron, “But if you guys want, then I’ll go.”
“We could go to the Lake,” James said, it was Saturday after all.
“Alright, the lake.”
While we walked to the lake, I looked over at James, something was bothering them, I knew something was bothering him, but I didn’t want to bring it up, I mean what if It was me who was bothering him. I sighed and he looked at me, I looked at the ground and we went to the lake, Aaron and James jumped into the lake and I looked at the two and James looked at me, before I knew it, Libya was also joining us, she smiled at Aaron and the two were off doing there own little thing. I looked back at James and he took a seat by me, soaked.
“You’re not coming in are you?” He said
“I wasn’t planning on it.”
“Too bad.” He said, hugging me and laughing. I laughed and pushed him off.
He put his arm around me, “So if you don’t want to get in the lake, then I guess I’ll just have to keep you wet.”
“I wish you wouldn’t” So he took his arm off of me.
“But I kind of liked your arm around me.” He laughed and placed back on me, I could feel myself blush. But he wouldn’t notice it. I mean would he?
It was weird, flirting with her. Trying not to, but it just came back all so sudden. I wanted to just kiss her and throw her into the water and dive after her, because then I knew she wouldn’t care if we were dating. But if we weren’t? I mean what if she got mad at me or something, so I just kept my arm around her.
“I love you Kale.” I said laughing, hoping she would take it as a joke, even though I wasn’t really joking.
“aww how cute James, I love you too.” She said with a laugh. I smiled at her, “If you love me, you’d join me in the lake.”
“Fine.” She said with a smile, and jumped in, I jumped in after her. “See not that bad now is it?”
I looked at him, “It is beyond bad.” She said with a smile, I swam closer to her, and wrapped my arms around her, “How bad?”
“Very?” She said with a smile. I looked at her, leaned in and kissed her. She pulled away, “James… I…”
I let go of her, “Right, I shouldn’t have.” I said, feeling hurt, and confused. I thought she would have wanted me too.
“No… I mean,” She looked at me and kissed me back, “I love you, James, and I’m sorry I mean for everything I was being…”
“You were worried?” I said looking down at her, “Yes that.” She said and hugged me, I stroked her hair back and sighed.
The time flew, and it grew dark, windy. We were still outside, and we all knew we should have been going back to the common room. Especially Kale, she didn’t want to get caught, and she was still afraid about the things that were happening to her. Her bad luck I suppose.
I held her hand, and we walked into the common room. The fire was nice and warm, and the other students have seemed to disappear, or maybe I didn’t notice them. It didn’t matter. I looked up at her, “Warm?”
She smiled at me, “Mhmm” she said leaning her head against my shoulder, and I put my arm around her and kissed her forehead, “Well that’s good.”
She looked back at me, “I’m still sorry, James.” I shook my head, it didn’t matter. As long as we were together, nothing really mattered.
“Geez you two back together already?” I laughed, “You two never learn to stay away from each other do you?”
Kale laughed and James gave me a death glare. I laughed at the two, “It’s ok, my baby sister is madly in love with you anyway.” Her face began to look pink, I smiled. “So spring break is coming up, finally, no more school, well at least not for a little while. Best of all no more Slytherins.”
“Whats wrong with Slytherins?” Kale said looking back at me. “Nothing nothing.” I said She looked at me and James looked off. I smiled, “But anyway, I have a date, unlike you guys, so I’m off, enjoying my school year, unlike you two, who are probably just going to kiss each other like always, or fight with each other.” Kale sighed and James kissed her. “See what I mean?” I said
I flicked my wand, and my jacket appeared. I began to make my way down the hall, It was night time, and I really shouldn’t have been out, but I did want to see her. Her hair was so blond, her eyes were a deep shade of blue and grey. I smiled at the thought of just hugging her. I turned the corner and there she was, “Hey.” She whispered.
“Hey.” I said and kissed her on the cheek. “Ready?”
“Of course.” She said with a smile. Then there was a blast, I could feel the ground shake a little. Kale? I shook my head, she would be fine, she was with James. I looked at her, “Whats going on?” She said, her voice was so faint.
“I don’t know.” I said and grabbed her hand, she smiled at me, death eaters now? I grabbed my wand and turned another corner, there was no one there? The place became still so very still, and quiet. I looked at her, and she stared back at me. I made my way to the common room and she made her way towards her own. I looked back and saw James with Kale, “You two ok?”
“Aww sure?” Kale said
“Didn’t you guys feel that? Hear it?”
“Feel? Hear what?” She said
“The wall… I mean not the whole wall part of the wall it like it got blasted off or something, and the castle was shaking and it was loud. How could you guys not hear or see it?”
“Aww your mental.” James said, I looked at Kale, “Sirius nothing happened.
November 6th, 2008, 3:31 am
"Kale, I saw it, with.."
She looked at me, I stopped. "Forget it, maybe i just am mental."
She laughed at me, "It's okay Sirius." I shook my head, what had happened. It was real, i couldn't have been imaging something like that, she was with me, she saw it too. She.. was back in her common room, i didn't get to take her out, not like on a normal date, and it was ruined by so called death eaters, and the only thing on my mind at that time was Kale. I needed more girls in my life. I grinned, and my little sister looked at me. Shrugging, i made my way to the common room, I hadn't much to say after that, and the only thing i really wanted to do, was go up stairs. While it was quiet so i could clear my head, well quiet was a short time, pretty soon James and Aaron would be up there, and well lets say the room wouldn't be so quiet anymore.
Either the stress of school was getting to him, or maybe it was a girl. What girl? He would have spilled it by now. We would have all known who it was. Since when did he keep secrets. It was killing me, and it was strange, since when did little sisters care? Why was I caring. I groaned and James looked at me with raised eyebrows. I laughed, "Just thinking..."
He shook his head, "Are you sure thats all your thinking about? Not thinking about me? I'm so hurt."
"You and your ego." I said laughing, "Hey can't help it now can I?" I folded my arms, i really didn't like when James did this, and he knew it. He thought it was funny, it just made me angry, upset. I didn't want to hear about all the girls that were always over him, that wanted him. I mean sure I could get a guy, if i really wanted, but i mean i never really cared about that and i never boasted about it.
He wrapped his arms around me, "Okay, I'll stop," he kissed me on the cheek. I smiled, but then again i always did like when he did that. I leaned on him, and he smiled. "I love you, Kale."
I nodded, "I love you too." I looked at him, "Lets go to the lake."
He looked back at me, "Now? After hours, i mean..."
I looked back at him and nodded, "Have your cloak?"
He looked at me and smiled, and nodded. I stood up, and grabbed his hand. It wasn't that late, it was just dark, and if we we're caught it wouldn't be that many points taken away. Our house wouldn't mind that much. Or so I hope they wouldn't. In a couple of minutes, he came back down. With the cloak in his hand he smiled at me, and wrapped up both in it. We had our wands in our pockets, and we walked towards the lake, dodging teachers and then we we're finally there and so was Jason? Why was he out alone, now?
I looked at James and we walked to the lake, Jason was making his way to the castle, so it would be okay if we went to the lake. I took off the cloak and James smiled at me, I flicked my wand and was wearing my bathing suit, i jumped into the lake, and in the next moment James was with me, splashing me with water. I wrapped my arms around him and smiled.
"You ok, Kale, you seem aww clingy."
No. Wrong words, very wrong words. She let go and swam back to the shore. I sighed, and got out. Time had passed maybe about 30 minutes or so. I made my way to the castle, i didn't know where she had gone. I didnt know what i should have done, maybe i should have gone back to go find her. What was wrong with us? We were either so in love, or fighting. Most of the time it was fighting, and if we weren't together it was if there was nothing left. Nothing in the world that would matter.
There she was, "I.. i'm sorry."
She shook her head, "I guess i don't know maybe i'm tired."
I shook my head, "No. I guess, i'm not use to.. you know having someone love me this much."
She laughed, "That was beyond corny, James."
I looked at her and laughed, "It was a good line though." She smiled at me and hugged me.
"I wonder why Jason was there." she whispered.
"I don't know.. out breaking rules, like we were."
"Yes.. but he was just by himself, i mean, i dont know, just wondering."
"Do you think he was seeing Cole, talking to him and stuff" She said, pulling away from me.
"Umm probably not, he didn't like Cole, i mean not when you two we're dating, and i doubt he likes him now. I mean he might, but i don't think so."
"Your starting to ramble James." She muttered. I shrugged, "Why don't you just ask him tomorrow?"
"You're okay with me talking to him?"
"Geez, Kale I'm not that protective." i said grinning.
"I know, I know, its just weird."
November 29th, 2008, 9:31 pm
"What are you talking about, Jason?"
"Look.. all i'm saying is i think there real."
"Well of course they are, who doesn't believe in fairies." I said laughing. He laughed at me, and put his arm around me. I didn't mind it, but i knew if James saw, he would. He would be jealous, i didn't want to make him jealous, or angry, i didn't want to hurt him. I looked at Jason and he let go. He understood. James was somewhere around the castle, probably talking to people, his little group of admires, the others who wanted to be just like him.
I suppose that could have been a good thing. or a very bad thing. With all the people who liked you there were many people who hated you. Life was very unfair especially when you were a teen, it was so complicated how come things couldn't have stayed like when you were 6. No guy problems, no acne no anything! You actually got a long with everyone, and your parents. Your parents understood you, now well the only one who really can understand you is you. Or maybe thats me. Maybe only i really understand I. Well that wasn't true. There was Cole, he understood me, or he use to. I really didn't see him around, and when i did, it was just a little wave the last i have heard of him, well was about two weeks ago. Maybe i should have gone and visited him. Maybe, but what would the others think?
Why should it have mattered. They weren't my parents, they couldn't tell me what to do. I made my way from Jason, and began walking outside, classes were going good. It was the weekend, a calm weekend. The sky was clear, and tomorrow was a hogesmade weekend. I really never understood the weather it was on and off, sometimes it was clear and then at other times gloomy.
Skipping and smiling, i knocked on Cole's door. No Answer. I shook my head, that sucked. No one to really talk to, to catch up on things. Where was he on a saturday? There couldn't have been many things too do. Maybe he was in the forest, but students weren't allowed there, so i couldn't really look in the forest for him. I sighed, and made my way back to the lake. Maybe he was at the lake, he liked the water. I liked the water,, we always would spend time at the lake. I sat down and put my feet in the water, it felt good. The cold water touching me, making me more aware of what was around. There he was, walking towards me, sitting by me, i could feel his breath on my neck he was so warm.
"Hey, hows it going, Kale?"
I nodded, it was good, he could see that. There really wasn't a need for asking.
"Well i just figured you already knew how i was. There really was no point in asking now was there? I mean if i were sad, i would have been crying, if i were angry i really wouldn't be by the lake, probably locked up in my dorm."
He laughed, "Hadnt changed a bit."
"Well.. more then you know actually. I sort of grew up, i mean i know that sounds really weird and all but i think im more independent i dont always have to be with people just to go somewhere, i like to be alone. Gives me time to think, not so afraid of the dark anymore kind of growing on me. Although some things are still the same."
"Well.. your still chatty." He said laughing. I smiled, "See, some things are still the same."
"Well lets just say you sort of proved my point."
I looked around a bit, the time was flying by and before i knew it, well it was dark. I had to get going back to the castle, hugging Cole and making my way. Pain, everywhere. No way to describe it. It hurt so bad. Like someone was on top of me. I couldn't scream, couldn't move. It was so dark, i felt so cold.
March 6th, 2009, 1:31 am
A/N I'm super sorry for the long long long wait. School and life in general has caught up with me, but I'll try to update more. But anyway here's somewhat of an update, i wouldn't really call this an update seeing as its really short :( Feedback would be nice too. -JG
I was going to kill him. He had done this too her, it was him. It had to be he was the last person with her and i wasn't going to take it. No. I grinned my teeth and clenched my fist. He was standing there and then he was on the floor. I shook my head, "You're done hurting her."
He smirked, "Yeah sure thing Potter," he said rolling his eyes. I breathed in deeply i left. I needed to go see her, i wanted to go see her, it was forever since i saw those eyes, heard her voice. I loved it. I loved her. I had planes to marry her some what, but i doubted she was thinking that far. I groaned everyone was in my way, and i wasn't in the mood to talk sweet to anyone. I just wanted too see her, why wasn't this day going how it was suppose to. I had heard she just dropped last night, but i couldn't figure out why, so i took it out on the last person that was with her perhaps that wasn't the best thing to do, but hey i did hate the guy, and i did need to take my rage out on someone. So why not him?
Then there she was, just lying there staring up at the ceiling she must have been so bored just laying there then maybe she liked it? She was always in the hospital perhaps it wasn’t that bad. Maybe i should have tried to get myself into the hospital wing one of these days. I mean meals given too you no school sleeping in all day? It sounded like something.. That might have grown into a habit these days. I looked at her, and she looked back smiling a bit. Her hair was messy, she was pale she looked skinner. I sighed, i was getting kind of concerned, and about her health she didn't look so good. Well of course she was beautiful, too me, but the way she looked it was just.. She didn't look like her usual self, the usual smiling happy self.
I sat by her and wrapped my arms around her, being able to feel her warm breath on mine, made my heart beat slightly faster. She smiled at me, and for a while it was silent us just staring into each others eyes. I liked it; we didn't do this for a while. She leaned in too kiss me, but it was awkward. We sort of missed, so I laughed. She looked at me and looked at the bed, was it not that funny? I held her hand, "It's okay Kale.. We can always try it again?"
She bit her lip, "I know... but what if there isn't a next time?" she spoke softly.
I guess i should have gotten use to it, but none the less, "There will always be a next time," i said with a reassuring smile. I didn't want to hurt her; i just wanted to be there to comfort her. I didn't want to leave her, not even if she broke my heart. Even though my thoughts we're some what corny, and the way I felt of her might have been well too much for my age? I wanted to be with her, i loved her. Hopefully she knew that. I wanted her to know that. But i was afraid to show her, what if she thought i was doing too much and my friends? I didn't really want them to think that i was over my head for this girl. Or perhaps everyone already knew.
Then it was time for me to get too class, sadly i had to leave her, i groaned and kissed her softly on the cheek and made my way, waving my good byes.
We're guys that afraid of showing there true emotions for us girls? I mean how hard could it have been? His friends weren’t even around. They we’re so confusing all guys we’re confusing. Then he walked in, “Get away from me, Jason.”
He ran his hands through his hair, “Kale… please believe me, I didn’t do that too you, I would never hurt you, I mean I know what everyone is saying. Your boyfriend just beat the living **** out of me, please… hear me out.”
“Do you know what’s in believe? Lie. That’s all that believing is lying. You’re lying I don’t want to hear what you have to say, Jason.” He looked at me, then at the ground he was fidgeting something he did normally when he was sad or really into his thoughts. The nurse came and releases me. Well at least I would be able to get to some of my classes and do some stuff. I got up and ran my hands through my hair, pursing my lips and looking around. The nurse taking her time, and finally she were out of site it was just me and Jason.
“I’m not lying Kale… Look I’m sorry that bad things happen to you. I’m sorry that I can’t stop them from happening, I’m sorry that someone is out there trying to get you, and I’m sorry that it happened to you, when I was with you.” He paused, “I really am, I didn’t do anything,” he looked at me and took one of my hands. “Please believe me…”
I sighed, maybe he was right. Maybe everyone was just so bored with themselves, and this school year because nothing great was happening. Well like anything ever great really did happen these days, school was school that’s all it was. So maybe these naïve people really did want to make up something, cause some sort of drama and fun in their lives maybe Jason was right. But maybe my brother and Aaron and James, and Cole we’re even correct. I didn’t know who to believe, but I doubted Jason would do anything to me. We did date; he did love me at some point didn’t he? I looked up at him, “I... I don’t know Jason. I don’t know who’s right I don’t know who to believe, who to trust.”
“But you trust James.”
I bit my lip, “Yes I trust James… he’s my boyfriend he loves me…”
“I loved you; I dated you, why can’t you believe me?”
“Because... I just I can’t.
“What do you want me to do, so that you believe me, so that you believe that I would never hurt you?”
I looked at him, “I… I don’t know.” Then his lips met mine, and it was odd because it was as a rush of emotion washed over me, I sort of enjoyed his kiss. It tingled, it feel so cold so good, and I was kissing him back? What was I doing, what was wrong with me? I was dating someone.
“So… I guess you’re with him now.”
James. I pulled away, and saw him; he was looking at the ground his hands shoved into his pockets I looked back at Jason, and back at James, “James… Please let me…”
He walked away and I looked at Jason, he looked at the ground and I followed James out. “James please let me explain let me talk too you.” He stopped the grounds weren’t packed with people – well they were all in class, class had started and me and James we’re facing each other. I just wanted to go sit in a corner and cry, how could I do this too him, why were my emotions so confused so heart breaking towards everyone. What was so wrong with me?
Wrong with me, that’s all I wanted to say, had to say most of the time, that’s how I felt. I felt so alone, no one understood me, how could they, they weren’t getting attacked or anything like that. Why was I? Why was I their target. Whoever they were, ugh. I just wanted to scream, I was so angry and sad all the time. The only time I ever felt happy was with James, well I suppose I mostly felt happy with James?
“What do you have to say?” His voice was clear, his tone was angry. Of course he was angry with me, why wouldn’t he be angry with me. I was angry with myself. I bit my lip, “I cant obviously say I didn’t kiss the guy because I was kissing the guy, and I know that’s not what you want to hear, and you already know that… but I don’t know what else too say, I mean I know I should say I’m sorry, and I am sorry. But I can’t just say that because I know that you know that sorry isn’t enough and I don’t know what else to do then just state the obvious… and I’m really really am sorry but like I said… I know its not enough.”
“Okay? Are you done?”
I nodded, yeah I was done. I supposed I mean what else could I have said, he wasn’t happy with me, and he wasn’t going to be not for a while, “I don’t know Kale, we’ve been dating on and off, but every time one of us wants to take a break from each other we cant, I’m madly in love with you Kale. I’ve always been madly love with you, every guy seems to be madly in love with you. Even Aaron use to be madly in love with you, but he let me have you, I guess It just hurts too see the love of your life making out with some other guy.”
“It was just a kiss, he was asking me if I believed him and all… and I just don’t know who to believe James,” my voice was shaky and I didn’t want to cry. No I wasn’t going to cry there was no point in crying not here not now, there was no point too but I was so blah I just… not doing so, wasn’t an option. “I’m so sorry….” I said biting my lip, my eyes were getting teary, and I just started crying. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into such a comforting hug. I missed him so much even though it wasn’t a long time since we’ve been from each other, I just I suppose I really did love him. I loved him so much and I didn’t know what to do. “James…” I said not letting go of him, “I love you… I really really do love you. I want to be with you, maybe even after we graduate, I think I want to I don’t know… spend the rest of my life with you. But guys.. I mean I don’t know if you want too, and I don’t want you to breakup with me, because now you really feel committed or something.”
“No, I’m not going to break up with you because I feel the same way,” he moved some of the hair out of my face, “I love you Kale, and I’m ready to make you my wife.” I smiled and kissed him on the cheek. So we just stood there holding each other, and my thoughts lingered some more, and things felt so right and so good I didn’t want to leave him here and I didn’t want to go anywhere. But we knew we both had too just in case, someone was to wonder the halls, and we would loose our house points. So we made our way to the common room, and we sat on the couch and he kissed me some more, and all I could think was, man I really did love him. It was funny then again, because a moment ago I was kissing some other guy? I was so afraid of loosing him, and I thought he hated me beyond hate, but he didn’t he just kissed me.
June 27th, 2009, 6:32 pm
"Your lips we're touching another. Why shouldn't i have been angry with you?" I was holding a warm cup of tea. I was sitting talking with Cole about life's random events that had been taking place. He look sad and torn that he couldn't do anything about the attacks. And he questioned it, why would someone be attacking me in the first place. Why would they want too? He smiled some, his hair was a mess, but he did look good. I stopped rambling, "James.. asked me to marry him." I said softly. Why couldn't i have said it all happy and smiley like they did in those movies.
He looked at me, and nodded, "If thats what you want." I knew that he didn't want that. But we were over. I mean.. he dissapeard. I wasn't in love with Cole anymore, I couldn't be in love with him. I looked at him and sighed, "So yeah you we're kissing that girl.. so i just assumed well to break up with you, like i do with every guy."
"Every guy?" he said laughing.
"I've had my share of guys..." i mumbled. He laughed. "We we're drifting apart Kale.. you we're spending more time with Jason and Aaron.. and James and Sirius, remember him your twin brother. Haven't seen much of him."
I nodded, "He and James are probably to busy thinking about pranking other kids or something. They dont' have much of lives."
"Except for planning a wedding right.." his voice trailed.
"What was i suppose to say, No.. because I still might have something for Cole.. some feeling that just won't go away?" i said, setting my tea down.
"Well.. would have been nice. Look.. you were my first, theres nothing like the first. I'll always love you no matter what, you were very relaxed, calming girl." He smiled. How was he able to do that? Just make my heart stop for a moment make me feel so much better without even trying to. The grounds were wet the last couple of days pouring rain hit the ground.
Someone knocked on the door, it was a staff member? I looked at Cole and he told me that i should head up to the castle so i did. Life would be different after that.
AN - Sorry for the short post and sorry for not posting in forever school has been busy this year.
August 1st, 2011, 6:04 pm
A/N - It's been ages since I've updated this story. Almost a year, I was going to give up writing this story but decided to finish it up while I still had the summer -- I also tried to keep the writing style the same, as my style of writing has changed immensely. I hope you guys enjoy, and thank you for reading. :)
Something just didn’t feel right. Why would there be a staff member at Cole’s door, surely it must have been someone else. If it was a staff member why wouldn’t they just go ahead and send him an owl – an official request or something, to meet with him. It didn’t make sense. I went behind a bush and decided to see who Jason was there? Not only Jason but it was Jason and Fleur. What were those two doing there? Why did they want Cole? Vivid images were filling my head and suddenly I was gasping for air. Someone was covering my mouth. I began to start panicking, kicking, and squirming.
“Stop moving Kale, it’s me Sirius.” He whispered a bit.
I let out a small sigh, why was my brother following me around anyway.
“It isn’t safe for you to be here.”
I pried his hand off of my mouth. I began to sign to him, “What are you talking about Sirius?”
Mother had taught us sign language when we were very young. He shook his head and he signed, “Not here.”
We started making our way back to the castle, “Why won’t you just tell me what in the hell is going on, Sirius.”
“James… James is in the hospital ward.”
“My fiancé, is in the hospital?” I stammered. What was going on with me and my life? Who was out to get me? Why were they out to get me?
I raced to the hospital ward, I didn’t care if Sirius was with me or not, I didn’t care. I just wanted him to be alright. His clothing was tattered, his face was beat up pretty bad – his body was covered in cuts and bruises. I began to cry, Aaron and his girlfriend Libya were in the room. Their eyes were also covered in tears. I looked around for my twin brother Sirius and he put his arm around me. The head nurse came in and shook her head, “I’m so sorry – we will inform his parents immediately” The headmaster – James’ father came in immediately. He was sobbing.
“I’m so sorry, sir.” I was stammering.
I felt like this was all my fault with all the attacks on me, I just couldn’t keep myself from feeling guilty. That was my fiancé and he was gone forever. Life wasn’t going to be the same anymore – how could it. The love of my life was gone. I held his hand and kissed his cold cheek. I was going to miss him. I didn’t want to talk to anyone; I didn’t want anyone to talk to me. News would get out tomorrow, or even before that James had died, that Kale’s fiancé had died. And that it was probably all her fault anyway, I mean, didn’t you hear about her getting attacked? Of course it was her fault, poor guy he shouldn’t have been dating her.
I walked slowly up to my dorm and news must have been out already a couple of girls huddled into groups stopped talking and were whispering and pointing. Some friends they were. I went up to my room and sat on my bed, my eyes were getting puffy from crying. I looked at the scrapbook we had started when we were just little kids. We all looked so happy there – James, Aaron, Sirius and I. I was going to miss James so incredibly much. My heart began to ache and my stomach was turning.
Preparations for his funeral were going to take place two weekends from now. Who would want to do this to me? I didn’t torment anyway – I was kind to everyone, to my knowledge no one really hated me enough to do this.
There was Fleur of course but she wouldn’t have killed anyone -- she was way too lady like to do so. She couldn’t possibly hate me that much anyway.
Libya walked into the room and put her arm around me, “I’m so sorry Kale, I knew who and what he meant to you. But he’ll always be with you.”
I nodded, “It won’t be the same without him – nothing will be the same anymore. This was supposed to be our last year here, this was going to be the best years of our lives and now… it isn’t. This year has been by far one of the worst years here, and I have no idea why. Or whom is out to get me.”
She sighed, “I don’t know either.” Her voice trailed off, she didn’t know what to say. Of course who exactly knows what to say in these kinds of situations? I gave her a small smile letting her know that it was a good thing she was here. She was a comfort to me – and I couldn’t have asked for more of a friend than her. I laid on my bed as she left for the common room to go with Aaron. They were madly in love – and I wish James were here.
August 3rd, 2011, 1:43 am
The pitter patter on the roof was growing stronger and louder but the rain storm that presented itself did not keep many students from attending Hogsmade. Except for me. I let Libya go out and hang with her friends; I really wanted to comfort Kale. It was only about two months after James died. The funeral was an emotional strain for everyone. One of my best friends were gone, Kale had lost her fiancé, Sirius seemed to be the stronger one – during this horrific event. He tried to remain strong for his twin sister – you could see that. I wanted to pull Kale in for a long and strong hug, like I use to do back before the random attacks on Kale happened. We had to figure out who was behind and we had to figure it out fast. If we didn’t who knew what was going to happen to Kale – to me, Libya, and maybe even Sirius?
The rain continued to hit the ground as I looked out of the window from my room. His bed was still there – empty. It was weird not seeing him anymore, him not being able to make us laugh, him not pulling any more pranks with Sirius, him not pushing me to do his homework when he would forget to do so, he wasn’t here anymore to keep our spirits high, he wasn’t here to hold Kale and tell her how much he loved her, he wouldn’t be here tomorrow morning to wake me up for breakfast and start to ramble about how much he disliked his classes when Kale was practically a perfect student. He would never be here again. I sighed, he was my bestfriend, he was practically like my brother and I missed him. Merlin, I missed him a lot. I walked over to his bed and sat on it, it felt almost sinful that I was sitting on it. Knowing he would never be able to sit on it – something so small like this made me sick to my stomach.
Who could have possibly done this? Who did this to James? Who would want to do this to James? Was it Jason? Jason hated James… no. He wouldn’t be have the guts to do so. I made my way downstairs to the common room – the room was dead silent. I sat on the couch feeling completely mundane and there she was. Kale came into the common room and sat by me, her eyes were puffy from crying , she looked gaunt again she probably wasn’t eating. She never really attended the Great Hall or Quidditch matches or anything that really had to do with socializing. She hadn’t talked to anyone in what seemed forever not even her own brother.
How was Sirius anyway? Was he taking the news as bad as we were? I looked at her and she looked up at me. We didn’t expect anything from each other – we just knew for a moment – life was going to be like this the rest of the way. That James would not be here anymore and that wasn’t exactly comforting.
“Have you talked to Sirius, lately?”
She shook her head.
“Are you going to talk to him, to see how he’s doing?”
“I miss him too Kale.”
She nodded and she began to cry again. I put my arm around her and let her cry onto my shoulder. The last time she cried on my shoulder in the Common Room was when Fleur kissed James at the Dance that seemed forever ago, it was forever ago. I held her tightly, I could feel her breath against my neck it was slightly warm but it was comforting.
“We were going to be getting married after school ended.” She mumbled. She pulled away from me and ran her hands through her hair.
“We were going to start a little shop a place where kids could come and hang out and just study. It doesn’t seem at all like James, something he wouldn’t want to do. But he did want to. He was a brilliant man although sometimes he didn’t show it but he really was, Aaron. I miss him all the time and it’s really hard for me to picture anything without him. I just don’t understand who would want to do this to me – to us. To you?”
I didn’t know what to say to her. I didn’t know that James wanted to open a little coffee shop and have kids study in it. I knew he didn’t take an interest in school and I knew he was a smart lad but that was James.
“What were you guys going to name the shop?”
“The Secret Haven… it was really James’ idea. He really wanted a place that wasn’t necessarily a library but a place where kids could relax and get their school work done and just hang out. A place they felt comfortable doing so.” She said with a small smile.
Talking about him made her happy, talking about her once thought future with him made her happy. She looked back at me.
“School will be ending in a couple of months…”
“I know.” I said blankly. It didn’t seem real that school was going to end. That this would be our last year at Hogwarts that she would leave here to start her coffee shop without him, that she wouldn’t be married to James and their children wouldn’t be growing up with mine. It just seemed unreal.
“I better get going Aaron, tell Libya I say hello.”
I got up and left the common room. I didn’t mean to leave so rudely or want seemed to be rude. I just didn’t want to talk about James anymore. It made me happy thinking about what our lives could have been but there wasn’t a use. He wasn’t going to be here anymore and I wasn’t going to be marrying him anymore. I wanted someone to talk to. I needed someone to talk to. Maybe my brother? He was James’ best friend. No. He was busy with his own life and I didn’t want to bother him. So I stumbled around a bit and made my way to the lake. Not to my surprise Cole was there. He looked at me and I looked back at him. Surely he had heard what happened – the whole school knew by now. The son of famous Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley had passed.
He walked over to me, “Hey…” he mumbled.
“Hello…” my voice was faint, almost a whisper. He put his arm around me and pulled me in for a hug. I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him.
“I’m sorry Kale, I heard what happened and I – I just wanted to say that I’m sorry.”
“I miss him so much Cole.”
He looked down at me, “You really did love him.”
“I really did.”
He looked at me, “It’s a shame you two won’t be able to get married and have children.”
I looked at him and pulled away, “Yeah… It is. We had so many things planed that we wanted to do.”
He nodded, “Like The Secret Haven?”
I looked at him for a moment, no one knew about that except for James and Aaron and I. James hated Cole there was no way he would have told him. Cole? No… he couldn’t have killed him. I was with Cole that entire day.
“Cole uhm…” I was interrupted just then Jason and Fleur made their way to us.
“I’m so sorry for you Kale. Poor you – now you won’t ever have anyone to love you ever again.” Fleur said.
There was a shy grin on her face. I wasn’t going to get angry at her. No. I was going to be the bigger person here.
“If I were you Jason I would go with your girlfriend.” I said looking at him.
“Oh come on Kale – she doesn’t mean it.” He said rolling his eyes.
“She’s right… we were discussing something that really doesn’t involve you two.”
Cole stepped in and for once I was glad that he did. The two looked at each other and turned around.
“Cole, how did you know about our ---“
“Expelliarmus!” It was my brother Sirius.