One Heart, Two Minds.

One Heart Two Minds. A Lily and James fic

You know you get those situations, where you have to decide on something, that could change the way you see something, or the way someone see's you? Well, no matter how uncomfortable those situations are, they have to be dealt with. But it is hard, especially when you have two minds about that one situation, both telling you different things and the only solution os to follow your heart. But sometimes the path to your hearts choices isn't always clear.
I always knew life was full of hard choices, difficult decisions, however i never knew how hard this one would be.


Extraction from the first chapter:

Mum and Dad are waiting with me though, but they are leaving soon. The ticket on the car will run out, and my parents are paranoid about getting a fine. Look, my mum is itching to get back to the car, her temple twitches when she is like this. Ha ha there it goes. Twitch twitch. Ha ha.
‘Mum, dad, you can go if you want. I will be fine here now.’
‘Okay honey, have a lovely year.’
‘Bye darling.’
‘Bye.’
Oh look, mum is literally running out of the train station. How paranoid can a person get?

Speaking of paranoid, where is Potter? I need to make sure I see him before he reaches me, so I can put in the anti potter plugs. I.E, earplugs.
He isn’t anywhere in the line ahead of me…
…or behind me…
…Oh no. That familiar jet black hair is heading my way. Quick, anti potter hearing aids in! Mwha ha ha ha.

A pathway lays blocked, the entrance hidden, covered like a shameful face with thorns and ivory. The plants that sleep along the concealed path lay thick, unmoving and old. A layer of dust coats it, where the sun hasn’t touched it for years…it feels dead, nothing, no emotion, no chance…no love.

August 31st- Still in the Muggle world

One day left until I leave this muggle world on the Hogwarts Express. Actually to be precise, about fourteen hours, twenty minutes and thirty seconds- make that twenty nine seconds... But I am not one to be particular.
I guess to sum up my emotions, my arms are waving and swinging madly in the air, by bum shaking side to side and wobbling about with my hips. (Actually I can’t help that. Ones behind is so humongous, it wobbles with my hips no matter how hard to try to keep it still. I have tried to tone it, it just got larger… I wonder if I sit on it long enough it might flatten? You see I wouldn’t mind a firm overlarge bottom; it is just that it wobbles everywhere. I think soon I won’t be able to find bottom holders to fit.
Anyway, also my feet are doing the conga. In simpler words, I am excited. I can’t stop my mouth from going: Oh yeah, oh jah jah jah ya jah out of excitement. Oh jah, jah, jah….
Also another reason why I am happy is that not once, not one single bloody time this summer has a certain boy whose name is definitely not Potter, hasn’t bothered me. I refuse to say his name or speak of him. I will not say one more thing about him in my thoughts again. That is a promise.

……. Ok, I am not quite finished with him. YAY! Scored one for me!! Ha ha…

…Wait one darn minute. Hold the scoring. He hasn’t bothered me once this summer. Boy am I going to get an earful once I walk through that barrier. I need an alternative so I can’t hear the person that I am not meant to be thinking about. ..Hitting him over the noodle with a mallet seems like a good option. But I wouldn’t want a detention, especially as I am Head Girl. Yes, Head Girl. Queen geek. I thank my father for putting that in my head.
I swear on my humongous bottom, that if he bugs me once this year, I will shove his wand somewhere where the sun does not shine, and where no other human has been. Actually, hold that threat. That would mean that I would have to go where no-one else has been except for him. Urgh! No! Darn that Potter putting very disturbing images in my head. Eeewwww! Putting his wand- no bad thoughts, bad thoughts. Think of good thoughts, good thoughts, good thoughts…

…good thoughts… …good thoughts….


September 1st- Train Station.

There is a line.

And I am at the back of it.

Mum and Dad are waiting with me though, but they are leaving soon. The ticket on the car will run out, and my parents are paranoid about getting a fine. Look, my mum is itching to get back to the car, her temple twitches when she is like this. Ha ha there it goes. Twitch twitch. Ha ha.
‘Mum, dad, you can go if you want. I will be fine here now.’
‘Okay honey, have a lovely year.’
‘Bye darling.’
‘Bye.’
Oh look, mum is literally running out of the train station. How paranoid can a person get?

Speaking of paranoid, where is Potter? I need to make sure I see him before he reaches me, so I can put in the anti potter plugs. I.E, earplugs.
He isn’t anywhere in the line ahead of me…
…or behind me…
…Oh no. That familiar jet black hair is heading my way. Quick, anti potter hearing aids in! Mwha ha ha ha.

Now I am stood alone, with earplugs in. I bet normal people don’t have to do this to avoid someone. You know, this place is really quiet if you put ear plugs in. It is nice, lost in your own thoughts, without having someone in there with you.

A minute later…

Ohmgiddygodspajamas! Why does he have to do that? Just popping out like that when you least expect it, right in front of you with that supposed-to-be-cheeky-and-sexy-smile-but-rather-annoying-smile-instead. Oh, god. His mouth is moving rapidly; thank god I can’t hear a word he is babbling on about. Hhmmm…

…oh gosh, he is looking at me expectantly. I think he has asked me a question. Ut-oh. Okay Lily, just do what you usually do in these situations. Nod your head and say ‘yeah’.
…My head is nodding…
‘Yeah.’
He is laughing at me, dear god. Stop that laughing, stop it! Grrrr he annoys me.
Oh look it is Remus, Peter and Sirius. Shame I can’t hear them.

…Why am I still nodding? Stop the nodding! Ok, violent head movement has ceased. I think.
Oh look Sirius is pointing at something behind me. Ha ha I feel sorry for the person he is picking on now. Hang on…
…he isn’t pointing behind me. It’s me! He’s-he’s pointing at my ears…And laughing at me!

Red alerts, red alert! Cover blown!! Cover blown!!! Time to regain my dignity…

As I took the ear plugs out, loud noise flooded my ears. I looked at James’s stunned face and decided to say something.
‘Sorry! Did you say something Potter?’

I shoved the plugs back in my pocket and looked up expectantly at James.
‘Um- no! I was just-’ he stuttered.
‘-Yeah ok. Right then, well see you then.’
The line has moved quickly, I am next to enter the platform. Why is he still here? Why? Why?
‘Why?’
OMG! Did I just say that out aloud?
‘Um, Lily?’
‘What Potter?’ I retorted angrily. ‘I don’t want to talk to you. I don’t need you to make me even more insane that I already am! I already have problems keeping my thoughts in my head without saying them out aloud.’

There was a ringing silence, where Remus, Sirius and Peter were stood their distance trying to stifle their laughter. I glared at them. Unfortunately, that made them laugh harder.

‘Ah Evans! You have so many thoughts of me you can’t keep them all in your head. So go on. What was that thought crowding your head?’
‘Who said it was about you Potter? Why does everything have to be about you?’
‘Was it?’

…I am not answering that out aloud…

‘Of course it was bloody about him. I can’t think of anything else at the moment except for him. Why does he have to be so…memorable?’

Why is the Potter staring at me as if Christmas has come early? It is really scary. Wait a minute. Did I just? No!
I clamped a hand over my mouth in shock.
‘Did I just say that out aloud? I did didn’t I?’ I demanded.
‘Yep’ he replied grinning and placing an arm around my waist. ‘You can’t resist me Evans.’
‘Oh! Leave me alone Potter!’

Great, now I am all flustered and hot. I really need to learn to keep my thoughts in my head. Shame that thoughts I want to keep in my head seem to come out of my mouth automatically.

‘Evans? You’re next. Do you want me to escort you through the barrier?’
‘No’ I replied simply. Before he could say anything, I had run at the barrier and passed through it. That was the last time I would pass through that barrier that way and I did it in a manner of one being raged. Urgh! Potters fault. Speaking of the devil, here he comes. Ear plugs in…
…excellent…

Before he could raid me with his idiosity, I ran for a space on the train. Shame I am early, but it means good seats.

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On the train, in a free compartment…

I am sat upside down on the seat with my behind and legs stuck in the air. Don’t ask, although someone has to.
‘Lily’ squealed a voice at the compartment door. Mabs was grinning from ear to ear at me, her smile faded and it was replaced with curiosity.
‘Lils? What in the blazes of Potters mother are you doing?’

. She had to include Potter in this didn’t she? She seemed to be alone, so I though I would answer truthfully. Big mistake.

‘Well, I am trying to move some of the weight that has collected in my humongous behind, towards the top half of my body. I’ll have you know that I am seventeen years old and I am bursting with womanhood. I wear a bra that I don’t need to wear because there is nothing in the chest area. Am to believe that instead of a normal chest I have a large bottom? Yes.’

I heard some boys laugh in the doorway and stretched my head to see Potter and his friends laughing. Great that is exactly what I wanted, to make an idiot of myself in front of Potter.

‘Evans my darling. Your bottom is absolutely perfect. As for the ‘nunga nunga area-‘
I will not let him finish that sentence! I don’t want to know.
‘Shut it Potter!’

I got down from my position and adjusted my hair. Mabs and the boys sat down, unfortunately for me, Potter sat in front of me. And he is grinning at me…still…



There was an awkward silence that gladly was broken by the arrival of my other two best friends. Alice and Emma. I greeted them with the usual squealing and many hugs and then shoved Potter out of the way so they could sit down. Potter was left stood up and I raised my eyebrows at him. He raised his back and winked.
Grrrr, he just doesn’t get it.
Emma sighed.
‘What is up Em’s?’
‘Just summing up my fabulous life. The dream god has left me for a better life, taking my heart with him. Well…not literally otherwise there would be a very large whole in my nungas.’
Emma had a boyfriend that was a year ahead. He left last year, and is on his way to becoming an auror.

…Potter is still looking at me. Grrrr fine…

I moved my bag out of the way so he could sit down next to me. He bounced onto the seat and put his arm around me.
‘Don’t push it’ I whispered.
He shrugged and withdrew his arm.
‘What are you prats doing here anyway?’ asked Mabs.
‘Hanging about’ shrugged James.
‘Lovely. Anyway, I am going to have to leave this oh so enjoyable compartment to enter the room of doom. A.K.A the prefects’ carriage’ I said standing up.
‘Remus, you’d better move otherwise Lily’s humongous bottom might not fit through the door’ laughed Mabs.
‘Careful Mabs’ I warned. ‘If you still want your fringe in one piece, I suggest you zip it.’

Remus laughed and followed me out of the compartment. He is a prefect.

…why is Potter following?

‘Er, Remus? You don’t know who head boy is do you?’
‘Yeah’ he said grimly. ‘Prongs.’

I stopped in horror, which meant that Remus and James walked straight into me.

‘Wa-bt-no-bu-huh-wa-‘

Great, now I can’t speak. My brain has completely logged out.

‘Yeah Evans, me. Looks like we will be doing duties together.’
He walked past me grinning his annoying grin, whilst I stood like a statue, mouth hanging open.
My brain is trying to log in, but it has forgotten the password.
Potter turned around and walked back towards me. Remus smirked and went into the prefects’ compartment. Potter is stood really close to me, it is scary.
He pushed my mouth closed gently and whispered:
‘You might catch flies.’

Grrrr-

Then he did something that will scar me for life. He planted a kiss on my lips.
Computer overload! Computer overload! Danger! Danger!
He must have seen my temper rising, as he stood back in horror.
In my head I was shouting, but what came out of my mouth did not match was what being said in my head. Once again, my mouth wasn’t working.
‘Watdyadothafor?’
Potter threw back his head and laughed. I shoved past him and fumed into the prefects’ carriage and sat down. He came in after me and sat down next to me. Why? Why? Why me? My life is over…


Hogwarts: Great Hall...FOOD!!!

Food, food! I would give anything just to have some food on plate! I would even let Potter be given to a pack of raging centaurs in the forbidden forest...I would do that anyway, but oh well. Ahhh, my stomach aches of hunger…
…And Potter is still talking to me. I want to cry, he is sooo annoying. I am also trying to control my temper. Lack of food and lack of peace can do strange things to a person.
‘Lily are you listening to me?’

…Huh? Am I listening to him? No. Will I? No…

‘Where’s the food?’ I whined ignoring Potter.
‘Patience Lily, food will be here soon’ said Emma.
‘It better hurry up! Lack of food can do strange things to a woman’ I said glaring at James who was now playing with my hair. He shrunk back and stopped it. I still have not forgiven him for kissing me…
…and I will never speak of it to anyone…
…but will he?
..NO! I have to speak to him!
‘Potter?’ I said quickly and quietly.
‘Yes beautiful?’

..I am not going to say anything about that comment. Ignore it Lily…

‘Um, can I ask you a favor?’
‘Sure! What is it?’ he said eagerly.
‘Can you not repeat your little- incident to anyone please?’ I said.
‘What incident’ he asked curious.

…Gosh he has a short brain span…

‘The one that occurred between the times of coming out of the compartment we were in to entering the prefects’ carriage.’
‘Oh that one’ he said grinning. ‘Sure. Anything for you.’

…Phew…Ahhh here come the first years.
‘Ahhh bless them. They look so small’ exclaimed Emma.
‘Who cares? They are walking to slow’ whined Sirius.
‘Exactly what I was thinking’ Alice whispered to him watching the first years slowly amble through the great hall.
‘You know Evans-‘
‘Ssh Potter’ I hissed at James.

2 Minutes Later…where's the food?!?!?!?!?!?!

Only a few more people to be sorted. They look so nervous. I remember when I was sorted. I was really nervous, but so happy when I was called out to be in Gryffindor.
‘Psst! Evans? You remember our sorting’ whispered James happily.
‘Vividly. Now get out of my thoughts’ I whispered back bored.

How could I forget? As I stood up to go to the sorting hat, he tripped me up. How humiliated was I? That was also when I produced my first bit of magic. He still has the scar. Of course I didn’t mean to- well maybe I did.
Ahhh it has finished.
Dumbledore stood up and the great hall fell silent.
‘Welcome first year to Hogwarts and welcome back for the old students. I have a few notices to attend to; however I think I will fulfill your hungry desires. Tuck in!’
Me, Mabs, Alice and Emma cheered as food appeared on the table. Everyone immediately began to grab some and pile it onto their plates.
‘Evans! Someone might think you were-‘
I have no desire to hear what he has to say.
‘Potter! If you do not shut up I will have to-‘
‘-Hex you into an oblivion’ finished Mabs for me.

‘Have I told you Lily how dazzling you look today?’ said James, winking at me.

Actually, no he hasn’t. But I wished he hadn’t too. I need to find a retort, and fast. It has already been a couple of seconds since he spoke.

I can’t think of anything to say. Mouth is wide open; no noise is escaping through it.

…Alert! Alert! Mouth is active but brain has once again stopped working…
OMG! Am I? No! I can feel it! I am actually blushing! Boo! Boo!
Oh god, he is looking at me weird. Stop it! Stop looking at me! Stop!
‘Stop it!’ I yelled at him.
‘What? He said innocently.
‘Stop looking at me like that!’
‘Looking like what-‘
I turned away from him and focused upon the conversation going on between Mabs and Alice.
‘When was the last time you were on the rack of love Lils?’
‘I don’t know’ I said irritated.

Now Potter has got me in a foul mood. Completely ruined my first day back.

‘It was that Ravenclaw seventh year! Remember Lils?’
‘Ahhh! Yeah I remember. Carl Jones.’’
Clang! I turned to see Potter had knocked over his goblet and there was pumpkin juice everywhere. I waved my wand and it disappeared. James was gaping at me looking shocked and hurt.
‘When was this?’ he demanded.
‘End of last year’ I said bored. I went to turn back around again but he talked again.
Doesn’t his mouth ever shut? Boo the talking. Boo!
‘Did you date?’
I ignored him. It is none of his business.
‘Did you date?’
‘Yes Potter! We dated!’ I shouted at him. ‘It is none of your business who I date.’

Great I am once again very angry. Grrrr and he looks hurt. Why? I haven’t said anything to hurt him…
‘Potter, I would appreciate it if you just stayed out of my conversations and stopped bugging me constantly.’
‘Sorry’ he said and looked down at his plate. He picked up his fork and began pushing his food around.

Great, now I feel bad.

This is also bad as I have never felt bad for Potter.

‘James’ I said softly in a low voice. He looked up at me sadly.
‘Look. You are a- er- nice (inside my head: cough, cough, cough.) person but I just need my space sometimes.’
I smiled weakly. It hurt. Yes the smiling. I don’t think I have ever smiled at him before. Ah! He is smiling back. Oh gosh, I am blushing again. Wow, he does have a nice smile. His eyes are all dreamy and-
Shut up brain! No! I am not developing a crush on him.
‘I am not developing a crush’ I shouted at myself, unfortunately it was out aloud. Luckily, everyone was moving and standing up as dinner was finished so no-one heard me…
…but there is always an unlucky side. Do you want to hear it? One day I will laugh about this.
Hahahahahaha

…hang on…let me get all maniac laughing out first before I share this very embarrassing secret with you…

HAHAHAHAHAHA hem hem…

James heard. Yep, start cringing. I was bracing myself for some flirty retort, but he didn’t say anything. He smiled at me. But it wasn’t one of his fake, flirty smiles. It was genuine. And then he stood up and walked off. No stupid remark…nothing…I am officially scared.
‘Lily!’ someone called at me. James was waiting for me. ‘We have to show the first years to the common room, come on.’

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Dumbledore’s office.



Dumbledore is going through the rules and things for the Head Boy and Girl Duties. Just dropped the midgets off at the Common Room!!! Ha ha.

‘You will patrol the corridors every other night; you will not however patrol together. You will both take one side of the school each to make sure the whole school is being covered….’

…Ha ha ha Potter won’t like this….good for me though…

‘You will have authority to give detentions to students out of bed, and deduct house points; however you must contact a member of staff so we know. Of which I am sure you will both do.’

Oh yeah…Potter will....Who’s he kidding making Potter Head Boy? The Headmaster has gone mad….

‘You will both organize events given to you by the teachers or myself. These could be Hogsmead Trips, parties or anything else that comes up.’

Looks like I’ll be the one doing the organizing then…sigh

‘Any questions?’

Yes….why is Potter Head boy??? Why do you have to do this to me?

‘Anything you wish to add Lily?’ says Potter grinning at me.

Death glare…death glare…

‘No’ I lied.
‘Excellent then, you may go back to your common rooms and enjoy a peaceful night.’’
‘Actually yes!’

Potter is staring at me.
‘Lily?’
‘Yes there is something I would like to add.’
‘Then go ahead Miss Evans.’

Hang on…I can’t say that! I don’t want to seem too…hateful. I can’t ask why Potter is head boy and how I wish he wasn’t because he irritates me so much and I hate him. Sigh.

‘Hate is such a hard word. Really I should say dislike.’

Sigh. And I said that aloud. I’m now used to this torture of not being able to contain things in my head.
‘It’s not my fault you know.’

Potter is staring at me as though I have three heads. Yet again I might.

Now I’m touching my head to make sure….

‘Well, I’ll be off to bed now. Good night Professor, Potter’
Walk calmly out…calmly…
…and run!

Fourth Corridor…One minute Later…

Pant…pant…I am- so unfit, pant. I think i may need to sit down...
‘Hey Lily! Evans!’
Great, he caught up.
‘What?’ I snapped at him as he leveled with me, still panting.
He’s grinning that annoying grin….grin, man I hate…wait dislike that grin.
‘What was that back there?’
I turned around to look behind me.
‘That James…was a door. Do you know what a door is?’
‘No! I meant back in Dumbledore’s office. You’re completely off your head!’
‘I wonder why.’
‘And why were you touching your head?’
‘To make sure I only had one. Now leave me alone!’
He is chuckling….to himself…annoyingly…
‘Stop chuckling to yourself in that very irritating way!’
‘Sorry.’

Silence…..It is quiet unnerving actually….

‘Why did you call me ‘James?’’
No I didn’t…..
‘No I didn’t.’
‘Yes you did, just a minute ago.’
‘I believe there was a long silence just a minute ago. If I had said your name, then there wouldn’t have been a silence.’
‘No I meant before that. You said: ‘That James…was a door.’ You said my name.’
‘Why would I do that? I don’t like you Potter, so I’m not on first name terms with you ok?’

…..actually he is right. I did call him by his first name…..but I’m not going to give him the satisfaction of knowing he is right.

‘Ahhh but I like you Lily, therefore I’m on first name terms with you.’
‘And I wish you wouldn’t.’
‘Wouldn’t what?’
‘Call me by my- Urgh are you that stupid?’
‘No!’
‘Well I can belie-‘

You want to know why my sentence was cut off. Yes I thought so. Because you are all nosy muggles…..

..I tripped. Yup…a simple trip that ended with me flat on my face.

‘Lily? Are you ok?’

Omg…he practically screamed it as if I was dying. All I did was trip, and I blame him.

Just like I always do.
He’s put his hand out to help me up. Do I take it? Or not?

Take it?

Nah…

Should I?

Maybe….

But if I take it, it will look like I like him…..of which I don’t of course….I think.

But if I don’t take it I will seem really rude and-

‘Lily?’
He has interrupted my thoughts now…..

Head is saying…don’t take it….heart is saying take it.

‘James?’
‘Yeah?’
‘Would you follow your head, or your heart?’
‘My heart, it tells you what you truly want. That’s why I know never to give up on you, my heart says so.’

Ignore the rest of that sentence. And bugger. He had to say heart….
So I took his hand and let him pull me up. And he’s smiling at me. Great….and is quiet close….

I’m not sure if I mind him being close to me…or whether it is irritating…..

Hmmm irritating or nice...no! Let’s not go through that mind debate again.
Perhaps I should say something though. I’ve been looking at him for a while now…and he’s, scarily enough, been looking at me too.

…..say something….anything…..
...or a distraction!!! Yeah that’s good…need a distraction….where’s peeves when you need him?
Improvisation….
‘Ahhh! OHMYGOD!’
‘What? Are you okay?’
‘DID YOU SEE THAT SPIDER?’
‘Where?’
‘IT WAS HUGE!’
‘Where?’
‘I-I think it’s gone now….’

Hee hee….and I’m pretending to be scared... hee hee

‘I never knew you were scared of spiders Lils. Are you okay? Do you need to lie down?’

I want to laugh….he is really concerned for me….ha ha… just because a ‘spider’ scared me…..
‘I think I’ll just go to the common room and head for bed. Early night you know…’
‘Yeah! That’s a good idea.’

Score!! Managed to get away….man I’m good…

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Second day of Term: Breakfast…


I’m sat with my girly friends munching on toast, and in Paige’s case…noodles. Why she’s eating noodles for breakfast I don’t know….
‘Paige? Why are you eating noodles for breakfast?’
‘Ahhh mon petit pal…it gives you a very large energy boost and also doesn’t contain much calories.’
‘Really? I never knew that.’
‘Yeah me neither till my tea leaves told me…’
..Facepalm…that explains everything.
‘Look, here comes McGonagall with the timetables.’
And by Jove here she does come.

‘Miss Evans, here’s you timetable. I am very pleased you are still doing Transfiguration, all of your other subjects are still satisfactory.’
‘Thanks Professor.’
Wow…my timetable is pretty good actually. I have a free next….and after lunch…
‘Mr. Potter, here’s yours.’

What?!?!?!? When did he squeeze next to me? I didn’t hear or see him come into the great hall….
‘I’m scared.’
‘Why’s that Lils?’ asked Mabs.
‘Did you see Potter come in here? Or sit next to me?’
‘Yeah I did actually.’
‘And you didn’t bother to tell me?’
Grrrr what friends they are….
‘Nope.’
‘Morning Lily! How are you this morning? Are you feeling okay? Have a nice rest?’
..So many questions…my head hurts.
‘Prongsie, how do you expect her to answer you when you’ve asked her a billion questions at once?’ laughed Sirius across the table.
‘Oh sorry Lily’ he apologized.
‘S’ok.’
‘Really? You’re not going to shout at me or anything?’
‘Why would I do that?’

…because I always do that…that’s why…

‘No reason.’
He’s smiling at me again…Look away.

Looked away…I have this muggle song in my head now…A band called the Madness. Very good….I have their song ‘Madness’ in my head. How ironic really, their song named after the band. And I have the urge to dance. I really want to boogie on down to it….but I can’t here.

..I have a free next!!!

‘Anyway guys, me and Alice are off to first lesson’ said Mabs.
‘Oh yeah I’ll come’ added Remus.
‘Well, Emma and I are off too as well now’ said Sirius winking at Emma who blushed as she always does….it is rather irritating…
‘Oh I’ll come too!’ squeaked Peter.
‘I have a free now’ said James. What about you Lily?’
‘Nope…lesson.’
I’m not spending my free time with him….forget it…
‘Oh…well I’ll see you guys later then.’
Now he’s miserable….

..oh well….boogie time!’

We all left for our lessons…in my case ‘lesson’. After they all disappeared in their classrooms I ran to the Room of Requirement with my dancing hat on!
…Ok…I wasn’t actually wearing a hat because that would have looked strange I just meant-never mind….



Room of Requirement- Music on! Loud…

MADNESS! MADNESS THEY CALL IT MADNESS!!

Yup…I’m singing at the top of my voice…full body movement in session. No-one can hear me…or see me so it’s all good!

‘Madness, madness they call it madness…yeeeha!’

Bum wriggling….arms waving madly in the air!!!
Step to the left…stomp to the right…woo!

Puff…good body building….puff…..

1 minute Later…

And finally…..

…..’MADNESS!’

And collapse on the floor. Wow…I feel great now. And there was no-one here so I didn’t have to become conscience of my rather large bottom.

Ten seconds later…laughing?!?!?!

…Why is there laughing at the end of this track? I’ve never heard it before.

It’s a male voice…I’ve never noticed it before.

How strange…

I’m now hitting the record player…its getting louder…Hmm where is it coming from. Not here, not there…

30 Seconds Later…

‘POTTER!’

I have found the source of the laughing. Grrrr, this is going to be the last thing he ever sees…because I am going to kill him…

‘THIS IS GOING TO BE THE LAST THING YOU EVER DO AS I ‘M GOING TO KILL YOU!’

He’s stopped laughing.

Finally…

‘How dare you spy on me Potter!’
I am screaming at the top of my lungs….my throat hurts…
‘I’ve just made a prat out of myself and you’re not making the situation better by laughing!’
‘Sorry Lily. I really am sorry. I didn’t know you were in here, and I was going to walk out and leave you but-‘
Well? Finish the sentence you idiot!
‘Well?’ I demanded.
‘Well, you looked so happy and you looked so beautiful smiling like that. I just couldn’t stop looking at you…Sorry.’
Is he being serious…because if not…
‘Are you being serious?’
‘Course…my love for you has always been serious.’

Freeze!

Ok, did he just say his ‘love’? Since when has he loved me? I mean I always thought he just liked me...not love…oh gosh this is serious….really really serious.

Unfreeze….

‘Just, next time…don’t- just don’t laugh right?’

I am so mortified. He has seen me, dancing insanely and singing…top of my lungs….large bottom unleashed.

‘Don’t be embarrassed Lily.’
So that obviously means I have flushed out of embarrassment. Great.
‘You don’t need to hide anything from me.’
I don’t know what to say.
‘I’d rather see the real you…I really do want to know the real, fun you…’
I really don’t know what to do…
‘So…’
He must have seen my mortification as he changed the subject…phew
‘I thought you had a lesson now?’
‘Umm well, actually I was looking at the wrong day on the timetable…’
‘You mean you didn’t want to spend time with me.’
Oh no he looks so upset and hurt! What have I done?
‘No, I just wanted to be alone for a few moments. Also I had a burst of dancing that I wanted to let off…alone.’
Am I being nice to him? Usually I wouldn’t have cared and told him that yes I didn’t want to spend time with him so get lost…or something…
‘You could have told me you know, I wouldn’t have minded.’
Oh.
‘Sorry James.’
‘There! You said it again! Say it again, one more time. I love how you say it…’
That is creepy….I am scared…
‘Uh- James.’
‘Wow.’

You know, this conversation is almost as embarrassing as the last one….


He’s just looking at me, as if he’s expecting me to talk. I need to once again...break the silence….I hate silences.

I put some more music on and sat down on a cushion. Potter joined me.

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On the way to Transfiguration…

We spent the rest of the free period in silence listening to music. I didn’t mind, for once he wasn’t annoying me. Hang that thought. How can we have been in silence is we were listening to music??? Ahhh I’m loosing it!!!
I actually think I’m being softer towards him, that isn’t normal. I think I’m feverish, perhaps I’m ill.
‘Potter? Do I look really white and clammy?’
‘No.’
‘Really hot and sweaty?’
‘Nope, just perfect.’
‘Are you sure?’
‘Yeah why?’
‘I wondered if I was ill.’
‘You look fine to me, beautiful even.’

If I’m not ill…then…

…The imperius curse!! Yeah, that’s it!

‘Potter, are my eyes all cloudy?’
‘No, just the usual pretty green.’

Hmmm I will have to come to the conclusion that I have been confounded. When I have no idea, if I ever find out who it was that did it I will personally…


…do something…really bad to them that I can’t think of right now.

‘There in for a big shock.’
‘Who is?’ asked James.
‘The person who has put their deadly curse on me.’

Potter didn’t have time to reply, I had already taken a seat in the classroom, the last one on this table so he couldn’t sit down next to me.

I am such a lovely person that way….





During Transfiguration…

McGonagall is going over some revision notes. It’s like listening to Professor Binns….Boring…

..I wonder if there is a transfiguration charm to re-shape the…uuhhh shape of my bottom. Must ask Mabs….

Mabby.

Quick note of a suddenly, intelligent, quick witted thought. Yeah I know, they come around a lot. Would it be possible to transfigure your own bottom?

Lils. Xxx

She is sitting three seats from me, looks like I’ll have to throw it.

One Minute Later:

I finally threw it. I kept going to throw it, then stopping mid air as McGonagall looked towards me, so it looked as though I had my hand in the air…

…she’s reading it…

…and replying…

…throwing it….

...and Lily catches it! Score one for Lily!

…Its quite short actually…

Lils,

Why would you want to transfigure your own bottom?

Mabs xxx


Mabby,

Because there are unfortunate people out in the wizarding world who have humongous behinds that stick out so much it is impossible to walk without knocking someone. Wouldn’t it be easier to just transfigure it, instead of the whole exercise thing that never actually works?

Lils xxx


Lils,

Are you referring to your bottom Lily? I really thought you had gotten over that…

Mabs xxx


Mabby,

How can I forget about it when my dear friends seem to remind me about it every so often…

Lils xxx


Lils,

Fair Point. I’ll ask for you!

Mabs xxx

What does she mean by I’ll ask for you?

…..oh ha ha ha I know what she means…. ****.

I am shaking my head at Mabs who is sat with her hand in the air.

‘Psst! Mabs no! Don’t I was joking!’
‘It’s an important issue Lils that has to be dealt with!’ she hissed back.

I look desperately at Alice and Emma who are just watching the scene, not helping me at all.

‘Yes Miss. Green? You have a question.’

No no no, please god don’t let her say it.

‘Professor, well-‘

‘Please no no no-

‘- Lily was wondering-‘

No no Lily wasn’t wondering anything…

‘-Whether it was possible to transfigure your bottom, you see there are some people who have humongous ones such as Lily and do not feel comfortable with it and wish to change it. ‘

OMG. She said it…everyone is staring at me….I am going red…so red….red….and now hiding behind my textbook giggling nervously….oh so red.

….I wishes someone would say something…..anything…

…Maybe I should say something….yeah…something intelligent to make me seem less stupid and paranoid.

‘Well Mabs, if I were to ask that idiotic question wouldn’t that just show I was very insecure about myself? Of which I am not which means I was not looking for bottom transforming advice.’

…I think that’s done it…

‘Not insecure? Yeah right Lils, remember last year when you were paranoid that Potter liked you because you liked him and you were depressed by the fact you thought he was joking around?’

…Why didn’t she just shut up? Why did she have to speak? Why?

I gave Mabs the death glare, and glanced quickly at Potter who was staring at me mouth open in shock, his friends staring at him, then at me.

‘I do believe that this is not relevant to this subject. If you wish to discuss your personal lives, does it outside my classroom please?’

Phew, everyone’s attention is back on McGonagall.

…Why do I have such crazy thoughts?

…Actually, why do I have such outspoken friends who are embarrassing?

…because I’m cursed that’s why.


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Break…

I practically ran from Transfiguration, I didn’t want to talk to Potter, my friends or anyone else for that matter. I ran for the common room, which actually was a brilliant idea at the time of the running, but as I sat down in one of those comfy chairs by the fire I realized it was a bad plan. Here anyone could find me, and laugh at me…tease me…

….need to find somewhere else to go.

..not the room of requirement…Potter knows about that…

…girls bathroom?...No…

…the greenhouse…..YES! No-one goes to the greenhouses during break.

…mainly because everyone’s scared about the deadly plants in there….

…I wonder if I stand still long enough one of them will throttle me so I can forget about the embarrassing things I have done today….

Very nervous…..

There I am, about to walk through the portrait of the common room when it opens, and someone climbs in and is now face to face with me. You can guess who it is, he always seems to be…everywhere!

There is an awkward silence; I don’t know what to say.

‘So Lily, umm where are you off to?’
‘I’m off to the greenhouse so I can stand in front of one of those deadly plants and let it throttle me so I can escape this embarrassing world I live in.’

There… I spoke truthfully.

He looks mortified….its pretty funny actually.

‘Well, perhaps you want to go for a walk instead? Away, from the greenhouses…well away.’
‘Sorry, I’m not in the mood.’
That is true also.





Walking around the lake…

He didn’t give me a chance. He took my arm and marched me outside towards the lake. Sigh. Looks like I’ll have to walk with him. It’s hard to escape with his arm clasped tightly around mine….

…well not tight as in cutting off my circulation…but tight enough so I can’t get away.

That’s nice isn’t it?

‘Lily? What Mabs said in Transfiguration-‘

I knew this was going to come up.

‘-was it true?’

‘I’m going to be straight with you James and say it was.’ Unfortunately…
‘Oh.’

Awkward silence….I really hate then.

‘Lily, I just wanted to let you know, that I do really, really like you and it isn’t a joke at all. And, I wish you would have said something about your feelings or shown it in some way because then this situation could have been different. Well, if you ever…like me again Lily just-tell me. I’ll always wait for you, you know. No matter how long I have to wait.’

And he left me…alone…his words repeating through my head.

OMG. How serious was that situation?? Ha ha aha ha and very emotional. I don’t know what to think…

He really does have feelings for me. And always has. He always will. He’ll wait for me…no matter how long he has to wait…

Ok brain, I heard it. I don’t want to hear it again…for some reason it’s making me feel sick. No sick in the way I’ve eaten too much, but sick because…the way he has been feeling towards me and the way I have neglected him all these years.

…I need advice. I am prepared to forgive my pals and confide in them…bring on the hot chocolates and…chocolate I suppose…





Gryffindor Common Room with the girls…

We are settled with hot chocolate and chocolate, and I have just finished telling them my thoughts and feelings.

They are all munching and looking at me…nodding in a nodding sort of way.

Nod nod…munch munch….

…more nodding…

…stop nodding!

‘Well? What do you think?’

Paige spoke first…hallelujah someone spoke…

Well, I mean- he was like- totally being serious then. He like- er- likes you!’

Sigh. Why was it so hard to say that sentence, and I also…I KNEW THAT!!!

More nodding…

‘Yeah but I knew that…I just don’t know what to do.’

‘What can you do?’ chimed in Mabs.

She’s right…

More nodding and munching…

‘So like-how do you –er feel about him Lils?’

Hard question.

‘Pass?’
‘No Lils, answer the question.’
‘ Well, I guess I feel a little softer towards him, I mean I haven’t shouted as much this term- however that could be because I’m bored of it- but then I actually managed to have a conversation with him the other day and not shout too.’

‘Mmmn, I think you like him Lily. Or are beginning to anyway’ said Emma.

More wise nodding.

‘Em’s right Lils’ added Mabs.

More nodding from Paige.

‘Really? Do you think- I mean-no I possible can’t- have feeling for…him! Not for him!’
‘I think you do.’

At this moment I was shocked at what I and my pals had discovered. Also at this moment the door opened.

‘Err- how did you guys get in here? Boys aren’t allowed in the girls dorms!’
‘Ahhh- we’ve uncovered a trick to get around that boundary’ grinned Sirius who jumped onto Emma’s bed.
‘Took us a while’ said Peter who sat on the edge of Paige’s bed.
‘But it’s worth it’ finished Remus who sat on Mab’s bed grinning at Sirius.

Oh god, James is stood in the doorway looking nervously at me.

Do I let him sit on my bed? But if I do it will support the previous conversation I just had, and show that I am being softer towards him. Its only a few days in term, and I’m being softer towards him already. It won’t do. Nope I won’t let him. I have a reputation of…well a reputation to take care of…sort of…

Mabs is staring at me. And she’s doing this head thing. Nodding at James…then nodding at me on my bed…then nodding at James again…hee hee it’s quite funny.

Maybe if I shout it at Potter rather then tell him he can sit down. That way it looks as though I’m irritated with him just standing there and want him to sit down rather I want him to sit down because I want him there…which I don’t….of course…I think.


‘POTTER!’

Everyone jumped. Ha ha, hem hem put on irritated face.

‘You can sit down you know!’
‘ er- thanks Lily.’

He ran to my bed in terror I was going to shout again, Mabs rolled her eyes at me. I think that went pretty well actually.
He sat beside me, and I turned and grinned at him. He looked very confused as to why I was grinning at him, but he returned the smile all the same.

‘So what did you guys want?’ asked Mabs.
‘Nothing really, just wanted to know what you were talking about’ replied Sirius who had taken Emma’s hot chocolate and was taking a sip.
‘Hey! I was gonna drink that Sirius.’
‘You can have it if you want’ he said giving it back to her.
‘No thanks’ she said in disgust.
‘So what were you talking about?’ asked Remus.
‘How nosy are you guys!’ said Paige laughing.
‘Yup! Well? Perhaps we can give you some advice on a matter you were discussing.’

I gave Mabs the evil death glare as she opened her mouth to speak. I shook my head a little, so she could see it shaking but so it wasn’t obvious I was shaking my head if you know what I mean.

‘Nothing’ I quickly said. ‘We weren’t really talking about anything.’
Sirius is looking at me suspiciously. The rest of the girls are doing their wise nodding thing.

How wise….

‘Right. So, I guess we’re gonna go then’ said James standing up.
Mabs is looking at me again and doing the head thing.

My telepathic mind says she’s telling him to tell him he can stay if he wants. And to engage him in conversation.
I must do what the wise one says…


…otherwise she’ll hit me…and she is very violent.

‘You don’t have to go you know’ I mumbled to him.
He just looked at me.
‘No, no it’s ok-‘
‘No I insist, stay.’

He smiled a bit and sat back down.

But what happens if he didn’t want to stay!!! Omg, I’d be forcing him to stay.

‘Unless you wanted to go’ I said quickly.
‘No no, I’d love to stay I just didn’t know if you wanted me here.’
‘Sure I do, I mean I don’t mind if you stay.’
He smiled again.
Everyone else is talking, I don’t know what about though.

Looks like I’ll have to engage James in conversation then. Sigh. But what to talk about?


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‘So-er, so did you have a good summer holidays?’
‘Er yeah it was okay. Didn’t really do much actually, had Padfoot, Wormtail and Moony over. That’s about it really. So did you do anything much?’
‘Not really, just relaxed I guess.’
‘Yeah, relaxing for our last year at Hogwarts. Seems strange we’ll be leaving at the end of this year.’
‘Yeah it is. Any idea of what you want to do after Hogwarts?’
‘No actually. I’ve thought about being an auror that seems quite cool.’
‘Wow that would be good. I always thought about something in St.Mungos, but something in the ministry would be cool too.’
‘Suppose we’d better think of something fast though, only this year left.’
‘Hmm.’

Great…now I’ve run out of things to talk about. Hey, it’s his turn now. I’ve done enough.

Mabs has just turned around . She’s opening her mouth.

*sirens goes off* Get to your stations men and brace yourself! She could say anything embarrassing at any moment…..hold on!!!

‘Hey Lils! I was just telling Remus about your bad skin!’

Huh? Since when have I had bad skin?

‘Don’t you reckon James she should wear make-up?’

I looked at James, I am now scared I have bad skin.
He looked at me frowning.
‘You’ve got perfect skin Lily; it’s not bad at all.’

Phew.

Remus and Mabs are grinning at us, it is scary.

I’ve started to fiddle with my pillow…there’s a hole in the corner that I like to pull.



Half and hour later….

They’ve gone now. I and James occasionally talked; it was like a one or two line conversation.

‘That went well wouldn’t you say Lily?’ hinted Paige.
‘If you say so’ I replied tucking myself into my warm bed.

I’m tired, sleepy sleepy sleep….yeah it didn’t go too bad I suppose- ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz


Morning…

Whoa, did someone knock me out or something? I think it was Mabs, after all she is rather violent.
I suppose I should get up but…I am rather comfortable here in my nice cozy bed. Ahhh nice and warmy…warmy, warmy….actually it is still very dark…

OH-MY-GIDDY-GODS-PAJAMAS!

Something very cold just touched my back! Oh dear I’m scared…really scared…I am trying hard not to scream…

It’s…moving up my back…no no no no no don’t do that….

I’m gonna scream…I can’t hold it in…

*ten seconds later*

I screamed. Loudly. Waking everyone up.

Paige threw a book at me…now I have a bruise on my head. Great.

On the plus side, the cold thing that was touching me has gone. Somewhere….

‘Lils? What on blazing-‘

At this moment the four musketeers came running in, wands out- yes I know there are only three…but this three has gained a fourth. As I was saying before I was rudely interrupted, wands in the air with a sense of readiness for a battle about them.

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'What’s the matter!’ exclaimed Remus looking around the room.
‘Lily woke up us all up that’s what!’
‘She just practically screamed the dorm down.’
‘I think I’ve gone deaf!’

Oh ha ha…

‘Something was on my bed touching me! And might I add whatever it was, was very cold indeed.’

The boys are searching the dorm for the- whatever it was.

‘Lily there is nothing here, are you sure-‘
‘Yes! I can’t mistake a cold thing in my bed touching me when I was very warn and cozy in there.’

I feel rather sick now…something was IN my bed…with ME. IN my BED with ME! IN my- yeah you get it.

I expressed this with everyone.

They all just stared at me.

I turned to James, he might understand. I looked pleadingly at him. He too just stared.

‘Maybe Lily, you were dreaming or fantasizing about someone being in your bed with you and you went too far with it and panicked, if you know what I mean. Eh?’ said Mabs breaking the silence and doing that-irritating-nodding thing again, nodding at me…then rather obviously at James.

James looked at Mabs then at me.

‘Thank you Mabs for that unnecessary theory you have, but I was NOT dreaming OR fantasizing about anyone, especially anyone being in my bed WITH me! I’m going to get dressed now and leave you all up here, in this room, with something that touched me, which I might add is large, big and probably hairy! And I’m NOT telling you that I’M not going to speak to you all until I am ready to, and when you all stop making me look like a prat! Good day!’

You show then Lily! Yeeaaaaah you tell them.




I went to leave, and turned around as I got to the bathroom door. (I went to change see, as I was still in my pajamas!)

‘And I probably will speak to you by the way, I left you with that so you could think about what you’ve done, and wonder what happens if Lily didn’t ever speak to me again!’

Door closed. Phew. I am much calmer now.

It is very quiet in there.

I bet there all thinking about what they’ve done. Yep, thinking…


Breakfast….yum, yum!

I’m munching toast, on my own. I left the common room without the girls who were getting changed.

There’s barely anyone in the Great Hall. A few Ravenclaws, Hufflepuffs, three Gryffindors and one Slytherin.

‘Hey Sev! Come over here!’


Yeah okay, I didn’t like him for a while for calling me a Mudblood but at least he thinks I’m sane and actually believes what I say.

Anyway, he came over and smiled a bit at me.

‘Hey Sev!’
‘Hey Lily.’

He looked around, obviously for my friends and Potter.’

‘Where’s Potter and his gang?’ he sneered.
‘Probably still getting changed.’
‘What about your friends?’
‘Meh.’

He frowned at me.

‘They don’t believe me. They never do, it’s like everything I say is complete nonsense.’
‘What don’t they believe?’

I told him, and he frowned again. He raised his eyebrows and looked at the top of my head.
‘Would it happen to be the spider that is stationed in your hair?’

Spid-spi- SPIDER?

I yelled and flung my head around in desperation and fright.

‘Oh get it out, get it out! Don’t laugh at me Sev!’

‘I’m kidding, there’s nothing there.’
‘Urgh! Sev! Don’t do that, I hate spiders.’

He is still laughing at me.

‘Remember when we used to go looking for bugs in the holidays?’
‘And I found that huge caterpillar and you went running of screaming in fright?’ finished Severus.
‘Yeah’ I said laughing.
‘Hey, we’ve got potions next, do you wanna- I mean sit together? I mean, good potioneers have to stick together’ said Severus softly.
‘Um-sure!’




‘Hey! Snivellus, what are you doing at our table?’
I looked around; Potter was stood, with the Marauders looking murderous.
‘Nothing that is concerned with you Potter, I have no pleasure of sitting at your table, and would not do so unless invited, of which I was’ he said darkly back.
‘Oh yeah, and who would invite you and your greasy hair to our table?’ smirked Sirius.
‘Must be as thick as I thought Black, I happen to be sitting with the only Gryffindor at the table at this present time, surely your miniature brain can figure that out.’
Severus stood up, I felt sorry for him. We were having a decent conversation as well.

He looked at me, gave me a small smile and a nod and walked back to his table.

Sigh, stupid Potter.

‘Why did you invite him over?’ demanded Potter instantly.
‘Invite who?’ said Mabs who had just joined us.
‘Lily invited Severus to our table, they were having a nice little conversation’ said James grinding his teeth.
‘You can so better then that Lily’ said Paige, looking at Severus with disgust.

Urgh, rage is boiling inside me…

I stood up ready to leave.
‘Where are you going?’ asked Remus frowning.
‘Away from all of you! None of you have any respect at all! Severus is a really nice person, and I like talking to him because he takes me seriously and listens to me without laughing! And I can invite him over if I want to Potter, and if you don’t like it then you can leave.’
‘Lily’ said Mabs rolling her eyes.

Grrrr, I just walked away. Hmm, I think I might go for a walk around the lake to calm down.

Do you know what, I’m going to invite Severus. Yup I am! See how they like that!

‘Hey Sev.’
He looked up at me in surprise.
‘Do you fancy a walk around the lake before Potions?’
‘Sure’ he said glancing a the Gryffindor table. He grabbed some toast stood up.

…Yum…toast.

‘Here, you didn’t get any breakfast’ he said giving me some toast in a napkin.’
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Walking around the lake…

‘So how’s your sister been lately?’
‘Same as always, ignores me, and when she isn’t ignoring me she’s insulting me.’
‘I’m sorry Lily.’
‘It’s okay really, I’m used to it. How’s everything at home?’
‘The usual, mum and dad fight all the time, they always have, nothing new.’

…poor sev! His family is falling apart, his parents fight a lot, I’ve seen them at it and it is terrifying.

I gripped his arm in comfort and he gave me a smile.

One minute later…

Gasp! How dare he! Oh my god, how can he do that? I am so upset right now…



…he threw his toast into the lake…a decent piece of toast…still warm…into the lake!!!!

‘That was a decent piece of toast!’
He looked at me and smirked.
‘Why don’t you eat it then?
‘I will.’

Can’t waste food…

‘Accio toast!’


In the dungeons…

‘It was a soggy bit of toast Sev! It wasn’t contaminated or anything!’
‘But you still ate it! It had been in the lake and you just- ate it!’
He’s laughing at me in disbelief…actually it is quite funny.
‘Can’t waste food Severus.’
‘Of course, you are simply an eating machine Lily.’
‘I know, no wonder I have a humongous bottom!’
Severus snorted. ‘You do not have a humongous bottom Lily, neither are you fat or chubby.’
‘Still doesn’t stop me thinking I have one.’

…ha ha what a conversation.

‘So, in transfiguration the other day, you were actually going to transfigure your own bottom?’
‘I don’t know, I just wondered if it was possible!’

He laughed at me again…well, is it possible?? Tell me!!!!!

‘Well, is it possible?’
‘Lily. Even you know it is possible to do human transfiguration. Not that you need too. How insecure are you’ he said smirking.

….insecure…

actually…

now I think about it I am quite insecure. Why?

I found myself begin hugged by Severus, and I was hugging him back.
‘Lily, you don’t need to change for anyone. You’ll meet someone, who-who will love you for who you are and nothing else. Your fine as you are.’

Whoa…Potter likes me for who I am apparently…nooo! Okay, let’s rule Potter out of that.

I let go of him and punched him on the arm playfully. ‘You’ve gone all soft Sev.’

‘Me? Pfft. It’s not me you have to worry about’ he said looking at the entrance of the dungeons.

Great Potter…still looking angry.

‘Lily, can we have a word?’ he said as he reached me.
‘Sorry Potter, I’d rather not.’
‘No, we need to talk.’
‘Potter she said no, or are you incapable of realizing what the word no means?’
‘Shut it Snivellus, or I’ll shut your mouth for you. Lily?’
‘Fine, but not for long. Its fine’ I added as Severus opened his mouth to retort.

‘What?’
‘Why are you still hanging around with him Lily? He called you a- a- you know what in fifth year!’
‘I forgave him Potter!’
‘And since when have you been referring to me as Potter again?’
‘Since you got even more arrogant and obnoxious!’ I hissed at him, my anger getting the better of me.
‘And he’s not arrogant and obnoxious either?’ he retorted angrily.
‘Not to impress people! How you think showing off will grab my attention and make me like you is beyond me!’
‘Well I guess there’s no point in trying anymore then’ he said angrily. ‘So why don’t you go and hang around with you boyfriend? You seem to prefer being around him than with any of us!’
‘Fine! I will!’

Well that’s settled it then…Hmph.

Walk away Lily, thats it...walk away...do not look at him.

In the potions classroom

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Library…

Okay, not talking to Potter is fine with me, at least I finally after six years get some peace, however I feel…bored. Usually I spend my time shouting at him which keeps me amused…not today.


I have a free, so am in the library reading some ‘interesting’ book…

…about magical creatures…


…Urgh, there’s really gross pictures in here…

...why would someone want to look at a picture of a beheaded hippogriff? Urgh…

…sigh…

..Ahhh look there’s Potter! He’s avoiding my gaze…I think on purpose ha! Hmm I think I may go and irritate him some more.


30 Seconds Later…

‘Will you stop that humming?’
‘Oh sorry, I thought you liked that tune?’
Ha! He just gave me an evil glare.
‘What are you doing anyway?’
‘I’m sitting down James. See? I’m sat right next to you.’
‘Don’t patronize me Evans! I mean why are you sat next to me? We’re ignoring each other remember?’
‘I know…’
‘There are plenty of seats in the library!’
‘I know but this one looked more welcoming than the rest.’

He’s gone back to ignoring me again…this is really fun! He looks so annoyed…bless him.

‘LILY!’
Mabs literally screamed in my ear!!!! I was just sat there and then she just…actually I didn’t see her come in…
‘Yes?’ I answered politely trying not to give her a violent kick in the shins….my ear throbs!
‘OHMYGOSH Lily hid me quick!’ she cried diving under the table.
‘What ar-?’
‘Ahhh Miss Evans.’
I looked up sharply to find McGonagall’s face literally shoved in mine….well okay she wasn’t that close but it was close enough to make me feel uncomfortable. She was looking down at me …er- down her nose in a strict fashion…what have I done now?
‘Miss Evans you wouldn’t have seen Miss Smith have you?’
‘Er’
Who is hiding under my table for a reason I don’t know?? Yes….ohh I wish Mabs had time to tell me what I should say if this happened….
‘Well-‘
OUCH! My eyes are watering…my leg kills….Miss Violent just kicked me from under the table…ow…I should really tell McGonagall where she is for that…but I am a good friend….

…and I don’t want to risk any more violent shoves…

‘No Professor. I haven’t seen her since this morning. She is supposed to be in Transfiguration now…’
‘Yes Miss Evans, she is.’
And with that she stalked away.
…not even thanks…


Mabs climbed out from under the table as I massaged my poor leg…
‘Phew’ she said grinning at me.
‘Do you wish to tell me why I was just attacked violently?’
‘Yeah I know’ she said frowning. ‘McGonagall was really in your face wasn’t she?’

Not what I meant…but…

‘Well, I kind of am skiving Transfiguration.’
I guessed that much…


‘And why would you be doing that?’
‘Because I haven’t done my essay that I was meant to hand in three weeks ago’ shrugged Mabs sitting down opposite me unconcerned.
I just gaped at her…so was James from beside me…
‘So you guys want to go and get something to eat?’ she just asked.

Why not….nothing better to do…

Fourth Floor Corridor…


We’ve taken a different route to make sure McGonagall doesn’t see Mabs…this involves walking back up to the fourth floor and using a secret passages that takes us to the first floor ahead of McGonagall’s office so she can’t see us…sigh…things I do for my friends…it is painful because I am so unfit…

‘You owe me for covering for you’ I pointed out to Mabs.
‘Well you didn’t do a very good job though’ she smirked.
‘Yes I know…you practically had to hit me so hard my leg STILL throbs to get me to notice you wanted me to lie’ I replied harshly…there was also a very big hint there.
‘Yeah I know!’
…shame she seemed to blindly not see it…

Face….palm….

‘Miss Smith!’ shouted a voice from behind us.
Mabs grimaced at me before turning to the…very angry Transfiguration teacher.
‘I found her professor!’ I chimed in…ha ha, that’s for kicking me.
‘Miss Smith, my office….essay…NOW!’
Ha ha, bless her…

Well, there was no point in this walk…

I just practically walked into Potter…I forgot he was behind me.
‘Oh I forgot you were there…’
‘Well that’s nice…easily forgotten…’
‘No..well….no I just have a bad memory….kind of….maybe….lunch?’
He shrugged and we continued to the great hall…Ha got out of that sticky situation easily…


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