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Old January 25th, 2011, 6:28 pm
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Re: Learning to Live Again

Hello again! Well, the brief hiatus is over and here's the next chapter. Not much else to say really except thanks to everyone who's been reviewing

Chapter 16

Lily sat on the sofa, scowling, while Harry played on the floor. Dumbledore had come, as promised, just after lunch so that Sirius could take him to Grimmauld Place to work on the security spells. Apparently everything involving Lily, Remus or Sirius leaving headquarters required meticulous planning and this had resulted in the four of them discussing the best way to go about the trip. Obviously Sirius and Dumbledore were to go, someone had to stay behind with Harry, and Dumbledore was insisting on someone to accompany them for added protection just in case Bellatrix showed up. This had led to a debate over whether Lily or Remus was to join them. It had transpired, however, that Lily was the only one arguing for her side.

“I’ll go with you,” she had said. “Remus is still exhausted from the full moon.”

“You want to leave Harry?” Sirius had asked.

“Remus will be here if anything happens. It’s not as if Death Eaters can get in anyway.”

“What if something happens to you three? I won’t be able to look after Harry if… you know.”

“But you’re still not feeling your best. Something’s less likely to happen if the three people who go are up to it.”

“However,” Dumbledore had started slowly, “it’s much more dangerous for Harry in general if you are seen to be out and about too much, Lily. Voldemort might believe you are becoming complacent and try another attack.”

And that was that: there was no arguing with Dumbledore.

The others were now sorting out minor details and getting ready to go, which Lily stubbornly refused to help with. She wasn’t really sulking about not being able to go, more that they had all ganged up on her and refused to let her go. She had been living in headquarters for two months now (although it felt like much longer) and she was beginning to feel like a burden on them all, especially considering that she wasn’t even going on missions. That she probably wouldn’t be doing missions anyway because of Harry didn’t really factor into Lily’s thoughts at the moment. Going out today would have at least gotten her out of the house and made her feel as if she was actually helping.

“We’ll be back as soon as we can, okay Lily?” Remus’ words interrupted Lily’s thoughts.

“Okay, have fun. Be careful.”

“Don’t worry about us, we’ve got Dumbledore. Look after Harry.”

Lily didn’t reply. After a moment she heard the front door shut and she was left alone with Harry. None of the other Order members were free this afternoon, which left Lily looking ahead to an empty few hours with nothing to fill them with. That was until Harry dropped the toys he had been playing with and looked up at her.


“What’s the matter, Harry?” Lily asked, climbing off the sofa and settling down next to him.


“You want me to play with you? Okay, what do you want to play?”


“You want me to read you a book?” Lily was surprised, Harry had never shown any interest in the books she had tried to read to him.

“No, story.”

Harry grabbed one of the cuddly toys and gave it to Lily, who now understood what he wanted. She stared at the toy hippogriff for a while trying to think of something. Then, Lily started the story, acting it out with the toys as she went.

“Once there was a hippogriff called Harry…”

It wasn’t long before Lily and Harry were surrounded by toys. Lily had made up a complicated story, the main plot involving Harry the hippogriff being an orphan and, once his true identity was revealed as a long lost prince, he had to go on a quest to save the princess who had been kidnapped by an evil sorcerer. To do this, the Harry had to go find an old wizard who lived in the forest and learn magic. When he finally arrived at the castle where the princess was being held, the old wizard turned out to be evil as well and it was really Harry that the evil sorcerer wanted and he had used the princess as bait.

“… And then the old wizard and evil sorcerer surrounded Harry so he couldn’t escape. They raised their wands, about to kill Harry, but - ” Lily reached behind her for the unicorn doll she had been using for the princess. “- the princess had regained consciousness and she raised her own wand. She bound the two evil men in chains and sent them down to live in the dungeons of the castle where they couldn’t escape. Harry and the princess went back to the city where they lived and got married and they all lived happily ever after.”

Harry clapped as the story finished.

“Aw, I missed story time with Lily!” A voice said.

Lily looked up. She hadn’t heard the front door open and now Sirius and Remus were entering the living room. Sirius grinned as he sat down in a chair.

“Can we have another because we missed the others?”

“Others?” Lily asked. “That was the only one. Where’s Dumbledore?”

“He had to get back to Hogwarts, apparently teenagers have a habit of wanting to stay out past curfew on New Year’s Eve. You told a story for two hours?”

“It was a very complicated story. It had interconnecting plotlines and everything.” She smiled. “How did it go at the house?”

“I don’t want it anymore,” said Sirius. Remus rolled his eyes.

“Why not?”

“Well, it needs quite a bit of cleaning anyway, but someone put a portrait up of mum in the hallway and it screams whenever you walk past it. We think they used a Permanent Sticking Charm.”

“Couldn’t you just knock the wall down?”

“Not that one, unless the neighbours want a smashed in wall as well. Anyway, the Black family home is at twelve Grimmauld Place.”

“I already know that,” frowned Lily.

“I’m the Secret Keeper - now you’ll actually be able to get in.”


A comfortable silence descended upon them. Lily picked up a toy and started playing quietly with Harry. Silences had become fairly common and it didn’t bother her anymore; when someone wanted to share their thoughts they would.

As was usual when these silences came upon them, it was Sirius who spoke first after only a few minutes of silence.

“When do you want to move out of here?” he asked.

Lily carried on playing with Harry. “I don’t know. Whenever’s best.” She looked up in time to see Sirius roll his eyes.

“That’s not really helpful, Lily.”

“Well what’s the rush? It’s not as if we’re actually busy.”

“I can’t be bothered sitting around here anymore!” Sirius blurted out angrily. Lily was taken aback – as was Remus by the shocked expression on his face.

“Well, when do you want to move?” Lily asked calmly, hoping that it would help Sirius calm down.

“What’s wrong with today?”

“Today? It’s past three o’clock – we’d have no time to sort anything out.”

“We’d have plenty of time. It wouldn’t take that long to move our stuff here to the house and then we’d only need to sort out the things we’d need for tonight.”

Lily just stared at him, still in shock at his outburst. Remus, however, was frowning.

“Why do you want to get out of here so badly, Sirius? You’re not even here most of the time, you’re at Figg’s, and you always hated your old home.”

Sirius didn’t answer right away. Instead, he stared down at his hands while Lily and Remus looked on curiously.

“I don’t like it here. It feels like we’re stuck in our own time loop and not moving out of it.” He glanced up at Lily as he said this.

Through the awkward metaphor, Lily understood what he was saying and was surprised that he felt that way. Now she thought about it, it was very self involved of Lily to think that Sirius had managed to move on. They had been best friends, and Lily had had no right to assume that he had been feeling any different than she had, just because he didn’t make his emotions as well known.

“Okay,” she said quietly. “Where do we start?”

Harry was put in his cot so he wouldn’t get in the way. Lily went around the house sending anything that was theirs down to the living room, where Sirius and Remus were sending it to the basement of Grimmauld Place by long-distance Banishing. The charm was a lot easier to do when you actually knew where the object was being sent, which was why that job had fallen to the two men.

Sirius had predicted correctly, and all of their things had been moved to Grimmauld Place in the space of an hour. Harry’s cot was the last thing to go and the house looked strangely empty without their clutter, even though it had been furnished before they had moved in.

The three of them congregated in the living room, with Lily carrying Harry. Sirius was bent over the coffee table scribbling on a piece of parchment. When he had finished, he tapped it with his wand and it immediately went blank.

“What’s that?” Lily asked.

“ A note to anyone who wonders where we’ve gone. I charmed it so only certain people can read it. I hope I remembered everyone. If anyone else tries to read it then… well, it’s not very pleasant.”

Lily laughed. “Only Order members are going to get in here anyway, you know.”

“You never know,” Sirius said darkly.

“Right, are we ready to go?” asked Remus. “Lily, we reckon Sirius should take Harry, because he’ll be able to Apparate straight onto the doorstep of the house and be under the protections. We don’t know if you’ll be able to do that if you’ve never been before so we’re Apparating to an alleyway just off the square.”

Lily nodded and passed Harry to Sirius. He led the way into the hallway and was about to open the front door when he suddenly stopped.

“Hold on,” Sirius said, turning round and going back into the living room.

“What - ?” asked Lily, but she was cut off by Sirius as he came back into the hall holding a piece of silvery material.

“Wear this –” He passed the Invisibility Cloak to Lily “- we don’t want the Muggles or anyone else seeing you by accident.”

“Right, we’ll see you in a few minutes.”

Sirius opened the front door and stepped onto the front step. Lily waved at Harry before Sirius turned on the spot and Disapparated.

“We might as well go under the cloak together,” Lily suggested to Remus. “That way we definitely won’t be seen.”

Remus agreed and Lily threw the cloak over them. She hadn’t used the cloak since leaving Hogwarts and it was a strange sensation being invisible with Remus huddled close to her instead of James. Remus had to bend his knees slightly so that their feet didn’t show and they exited the house awkwardly, pulling the door to a close behind them. Remus pulled out his wand and tapped it on the door. A faint click told them that it was locked.

Lily felt Remus grab her hand.

“Ready? On three,” he said. “One… Two… Three.”

In the brief pause before Remus had said “three”, Lily had closed her eyes. In that moment, she wasn’t on the front step of headquarters with Remus about to Disapparate, but was hundreds of miles away, sneaking back into Gryffindor tower with James. Then, Remus had said “three” and the illusion was broken.

She turned, feeling Remus beside her turn as well, and they were both swallowed by the suffocating darkness.

When Lily’s feet found substantial ground once more, the first thing she recognised was that Remus was still holding her hand. She immediately let go and took deep breaths, her mind trying to figure out what had happened just before they had Disapparated.

“Lily, are you okay?” Remus’ voice asked. Lily opened her eyes.

She was stood in a narrow alleyway. Weeds were growing up the side of the walls and somewhere a pipe was leaking; Lily could hear the constant drip, drip, drip. Remus was stood in front of her. He looked confused and worried.

“It’s nothing, I’m fine,” Lily whispered. Her brain was still swimming slightly after it had forced the memory on her, but she now had a firm sense of her surroundings and felt nothing but confusion as to why that particular memory had come to the forefront of her mind. “Come on, let’s go.”

They slowly walked out of the alley into the square. There was a patch of unkempt grass in the middle and the miserable fronts of the houses surrounding it were not welcoming. Lily would never have associated this place with the oh-so-grand Black family.

As they passed the houses, Lily looked out for number twelve. Most of them had paint peeling off the doors and one or two had a broken window, which the owners had not boarded up yet. A few of the houses didn’t even have numbers to identify them.

Remus stopped walking outside the grimiest looking house. Lily looked up and saw that it had the words “The Noble and Most Ancient House of Black” engraved in the stone above the door. The silver knocker on the battered wooden door was in the shape of a serpent.

Lily hesitated, but then sense caught up with her senses. The only dangerous thing waiting in there was the portrait of Sirius’ mum, and quite possibly Kreacher. She walked up the worn stone steps with Remus, and, as she got closer, she could hear shouting coming from the other side of the door.

When they reached the top step, Lily took the Cloak off them and slowly opened the front door.

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Last edited by gelowo93; January 26th, 2011 at 3:51 pm.
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